nicole han - giving up everything Lyrics

I have this reoccurring dream every once in a while
I'm knee-deep in a stream, wading out towards the tide
Sinking ships look pretty in the moonlight

I have this reoccurring fear I'm missing out on my life
Trading thrill for a slow, steady peace of mind
But will I spend forever thinking 'bout the joy ride?

I made some fast friends in the back of a fast car
Passion in my beating young heart

I finally have the life that I wanted
Would've given up anything
To never end up back where I started
All the pain I was carrying
I checked the boxes, I played all of my cards right
So what's the reason, I'm missing all the good nights
Feels like I have the life that I wanted
But am I giving up everything

Guess it's true, have a fear of all these closing doors
Scared of growing too old and scared of getting bored
Maybe I'm just on the brink of knowing something more

And when I'm miles away I'll always think about you
All of our friends and every time we danced in light up rooms
The memories so bittersweet, was it all gone too soon
Gone too soon

I made some fast friends in the back of a fast car
Passion in my beating young heart

I finally have the life that I wanted
Would've given up anything
To never end up back where I started
All the pain I was carrying
I checked the boxes, I played all of my cards right
So what's the reason, I'm missing all the good nights
Feels like I have the life that I wanted
But am I giving up everything

I have this reoccurring dream that I ruined it all
I'm spiraling how did I ever go so wrong
(Am I giving up everything)
I have a terrifying dream it's all slipping away
So what's the reason I'm giving up everything

I have this reoccurring dream that I'm trying to escape
Tripping over my feet that want so bad to stay
(Am I giving up everything)
I have a vision, I'll make it out the other side
And that's the reason
I'm giving up everything