No Icon - better now Lyrics

I'm-I'm in the
I'm in the light no longer staying in the dark
I've been learning to forgive myself I never meant no harm
Contemplating time was wasted I'm no longer counting stars
Doing better now for sure I've really learned from all my scars
It's been hard but by now I must be used to it
Been used up and bruised up by now and it ain't nothing new to me I'm cool with it
In queue with it I've grown in terms of music I'm good with it
If you with me or against it's just a question of clue innit
But
I'm doing better now I swear I'm doing better
Had to adjust to the weather I'm pulling out a new sweater
I always been a go-getter so I might just do it
Not a check that I'm pursuing there's more for me to music
The truth is
I know it's lonely it's the road I chose lately
Going through difficulties by myself is what made me
I've been changing for better even though I'm scared just a little
Yeah my life's a riddle don't know what I'm up against it's ain't that simple
If you know you could do it better than me it's okay then
I'm the one tryna progress don't ask me for explanation
I'm good without validation some things you can't pick and choose
Tried to follow God's steps I'm really not tryna lose
Myself in the process but it all takes time
Being a better me's a goal I'm trying to clear my mind
I hope somebody listen up and gets through rough times
Cause sometimes it's tough I know I've been there quite a few times
Enough times to really open up
Been going through emotions the edges roughen up
The clock is ticking I can't waste any more of my precious time
Know the end is nearing been walking on a blurry line need God by my side
But oh well some people never understand
I keep making mistakes and it'll happen again
I'm just a human being trying to figure out where it goes
When your story's so dark and you cannot just re-compose
I should be happy that I'm here and I'm me and alive
Not only living in the moment in need of no disguise
Been thinking bout these past times like my future's depending on it
Don't wanna live for too long but to some people I own it
But
I'm doing better now I swear I'm doing better
Had to adjust to the weather I'm pulling out a new sweater
I always been a go getter so I might just do it
Not a check that I'm pursuing there's more for me to music
That's why I
Put my pain inside these lines I'm scared to open up sometimes
I'm tired of writing slow songs I need to speed it up sometimes
Last girl she took away my heart it's time I turn it into art
It doesn't matter what they say I'm in no need of co start
Insecurities I face I put it all on my display
Know that I can't be replaced I'll make a name for myself
It's no-icon for a reason I've been ghosting myself
Some people turn their backs on me when I needed their help
I'm just here to make a difference in music
Don't care about the money or the label in the end it's useless
I need to focus on my mental cause my mind's abusive
And who's gonna care if not me? I've never been the cool kid
This goes to everyone who struggles you know if the shoe fits
It doesn't matter what they think just know what the truth is
And hold it tight don't let them get to your heart
It may be difficult but trust me it's worth to restart