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Yeah
Man I've been dividing deeper and deeper
It's getting heavy on my chest
My heart keeps beating still beating
To the beat you´re listening to
It's repeating believe me
I'm not the type to look for closure
Even when I am sinking
Don't know what I have been thinking
My line comes naturally though
Keep repeating the flow
'Till I get sick of it, I'm spitting it
No mumble no ramble I truly got something to say
If you don't believe in me now
You best get out of my way
I'm not feeling okay
But that's what I always seem to say
It's getting tiring I think I started hearing the sirens
You start believing a lie when everybody around you keep repeating you are
Am I living by it?
Whenever I don't feel alive I need another one
Bottom of the bottle, feeling guilty if I ever was
This is such a tragedy I see everything doubled
My depression gotten bigger
I'm more sorry than I ever was
I messed up, feel like I need to fess up
I lost a couple friends, I started drinking
I am messed up
Feel like one in a billion
No one knows what I've been going through
At least I did go through it, didn't fall I took a lecture
Such a pleasure to tell you what I'm feeling
This has been stuck in my mind until this moment I feel it already healing
I'm revealing the truth and why I don't think I'm worth it
I'm a human and there's no way that I ever could be perfect
I need to rub off a couple lines it shouldn't be too difficult
Been following the wrong things I forgot to do what's biblical
I'm still here though and I'm better than ever I can't lie
For some reason I'm still feeling occupied by the devil's lies
I know where devil lies, I can feel him creeping
And every song I write it's getting deeper and deeper
I need to recognize the ride is getting steeper and steeper
Climbing the ladder for a shortcut only gonna drop me in deeper
You know I'm down for the ride but I don't wanna swim
No happiness found yet but if I do then imma let it in
And maybe I know what all this time has been missing
I keep dismissing it I'm sorry things have been a bit difficult
I need God
And I should've reached more for him
I started letting go I should've kept on going
Dark thoughts in my head they always kept flowing
It's not like I talked to anybody 'bout it and it started showing
Letting in more feelings
I know that I need healing
I swear if I take a couple pills imma call it healing
Rising like the moon you know the times up we can't hide it
I'm sorry my mistake for wanting more than surviving
I'm off it, line's been crossed ain't no offense
I'm drunk and I think that I'm happy
I might be out of it
The only pride I had got dismissed
And it's all my fault
But it started making sense
The devil's tryin' and to get me in a coffin