Noah Kahan - Busyhead Album Lyrics

Don't take yourself so seriously
Look at you all dressed up for someone you never see
You're here for a reason but you don't know why
You're split and uneven your hands to the sky
Surrender yourself

And I wonder why I tear myself down
To be built back up again
Oh I hope somehow, I'll wake up young again
All that's left of myself
Holes in my false confidence
And now I lay myself down
And hope I wake up young again
Hope I wake up young again

Don't let those demons in again (mhm hmm)
I fill the void up with polished doubt, fake sentiment
Surrender yourself

And I wonder why I tear myself down
To be built back up again
Oh I hope somehow, I'll wake up young again
All that's left of myself
Holes in my false confidence
And now I lay myself down
And hope I wake up young again
Hope I wake up young again
Hope I wake up young again

Why won't you take me seriously
Look at me all f*cked up over someone I'll never meet

And I wonder why I tear myself down
To be built back up again
Oh I hope somehow, I'll wake up young again
All that's left of myself
Holes in my false confidence
And now I lay myself down
And hope I wake

I wonder why I tear myself down
To be built back up again
Oh I hope some how I wake up young again
All that's left of myself
Holes in my false confidence
And now I lay myself down
And hope I wake up young again
Hope I wake up young again
Hope I wake up young again

If I could give this all back
I would be home in the morning
I'd wake up in a cold sweat
Take a flight back to the city I was born in
And I would wipe myself clean
Of what I knew was unimportant
I'd want typical things
I'd try to fit back into all my old clothing

And I would prove myself wrong
That all along, the problem was me
With all my bitterness gone
Happy, I'd be

I'll move back home forever
I'll feed the dogs
And I'll put all my pieces back together
Where they belong, and I'll say
"I'm a mess, I'm a mess, oh God, I'm a mess"

And I'll take 89 to Boston
See my love
And I'll help her set up her new apartment
And we'll get drunk and she'll say
"Shit, you're a mess, you're a mess, good God, you're a mess"
"Oh, you're a mess, you're a mess, good God"

So I paid off my debts but I found the world boring
So I called my old friends but they only ever ask me how tour is
And there's still weight on my back, I just try to ignore it
I guess the stage was my mask
I forgot the way I looked before I wore it

And I would prove myself wrong
That all along, the problem was me
With all my bitterness gone
Happy, I'll be

I'll move back home forever
I'll feed the dogs
And I'll put all my pieces back together where they belong
And I'll say, "I'm a mess, I'm a mess, oh God, I'm a mess"

And I'll take 89 to Boston
See my love
And I'll help her set up her new apartment
And we'll get drunk and she'll say
"Shit, you're a mess, you're a mess, good God, you're a mess"
"Oh, you're a mess, you're a mess"

That's not what I had hoped
Now I find comfort in the cold

I'll move back home forever
I'll feed the dogs
And I'll put all my pieces back together where they belong
And I'll say, "I'm a mess, I'm a mess, oh God, I'm a mess"

And I'll take 89 to Boston
See my love
And I'll help her set up her new apartment
And we'll get drunk and she'll say
"Shit, you're a mess, you're a mess, good God, you're a mess"
"Oh, you're a mess, you're a mess, good God"

Taking it slowly
I'm afraid to be lonely
Nobody told me
It's harder than I thought to tell the truth
It's gonna leave you in pieces
All alone with your demons
And I know that we need this
But I've been too afraid to follow through

Hold me close and I won't leave
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody
So much to say but I don't speak
And I hate that I let you stop me
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody

Don't know where the time went
Stuck in the wrong mindset
And I let the rules bend
When I know that all along they're made to break
Ayy-hey, you got me searching for reasons
To keep me from leaving
At night I have trouble breathing
I give myself another chance to stay, ayy

Hold me close and I won't leave
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody
So much to say but I don't speak
And I hate that I let you stop me
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody, mm

One day before you know it, you will see
All of the pain and all the irony, yeah
You'll feel the stinging and you'll think of me
'Cause it hurts when you hurt

Hold me close and I won't leave
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody
So much to say but I don't speak
And I hate that I let you stop me (oh)
Hold me close and I won't leave (I won't leave)
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody (yeah)
So much to say but I don't speak
And I hate that I let you stop me
'Cause it hurts when you hurt somebody (somebody)

(One, two, three, four)

Oh dear, oh dear, I'm sorry
That you grew up so soon
A cold year with no high school parties
I've been drinking alone
Oh, I've been drinking alone

So, don't fear, just don't fear their warnings
They're bitterer than most
Four years of driving across the country
For empty seats at their shows
And they've been drinking alone
So

Keep your time, keep your mind, keep it humble
Start your life in the middle of the jungle
You
Young blood

Rub your eyes, be surprised, keep hungry
Stay alive, try to lose all of your money
You
Young blood
You
Young blood
Young blood

So when you're mad for no reason
At everything at once
And when you start overthinking
I'll be drinking at home
Oh, I'll be drinking at home, so

Keep your time, keep your mind, keep it humble
Start your life in the middle of the jungle
You
Young blood

Rub your eyes, be surprised, keep hungry
Stay alive, try to lose all of your money
You
Young blood
You
Young blood
Young blood

And if you want I could tell the truth
That this life takes a toll on you
I spend nights stitching up the loose threads of my soul
And in the morning I'm bullet proof

And if you want I could tell the truth
That this life takes a toll on you
I spend nights stitching up the loose threads of my soul
And in the morning I'm bullet proof
In the morning I'm bullet proof, so

Keep your time, keep your mind, keep it humble
Start your life in the middle of the jungle
You
Young blood

Rub your eyes, be surprised, keep hungry
Stay alive, try to lose all of your money
You
Young blood
You
Young blood
You
Young blood
Young blood

You're weak on the surface
You speak when you're nervous
And all the wrong words unite in your head
You can't stand the space in your bed
So you shake in the darkness
You break like an artist
And all your big plans are small the next day
You can't wait to throw them away

You perseverate
And the truth might be a million miles away

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head
Your busy head

You sleep in the moment, but dream like a poet
And all your good grace, like faded tattoos
You spend your days in wait for bad news

So you perseverate
And the truth might be a million miles away

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head

Going nowhere fast enough to tell a lie
Give yourself an alibi
You've been gone lately
Stand upon your peace of mind
You're bound to fall if you take your time
'Cause we're all waiting
And you can step alone into the abyss
Find a home on the edge of it
And be defined by its presence
By its size and its message
You can move along through the dark
And when you wonder where you are
You'll be proud of your weakness
So, busy head, just keep breathing, no
Oh, busy head, just keep breathing
Oh, busy head, just

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head
You're all alone inside your busy head
You're all alone inside your busy head
your busy head

I'd change my name to find a space to get some rest
I'd give my face to find a place to put my head
But this is who we are
There's no glamour to it
I board the plane and sleep my way to LAX
I cried at the rain, but there's no way that I'm depressed
Oh, if I think too hard
I'm scared I might lose it

Oh
The Hollywood sign don't catch my eye much anymore (oh-oh-ooh)
Leave it to time to make me feel I'm getting old
I'm living with it
Give me the open mind that I had before

(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Oh, I'm a cynic
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Give me the open mind that I had before

They sense the blame that comes with failure and success
Would it make me famous if I break down in the press?
And give them what they want
There's no effort to it

Oh
The Hollywood sign don't catch my eye much anymore (oh-oh-ooh)
Leave it to time to make me feel I'm getting old
I'm living with it
Give me the open mind that I had before

(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Oh, I'm a cynic
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Give me the open mind that I had before

I miss the days when one was better than the last
I miss the taste of growing pains I knew would pass
Oh, I miss those thoughts
And that fear of losing

Oh
I don't know why I see no light in anything (oh-oh-ooh)
Leave it to life to turn my strengths back into weaknesses
But I'm living with 'em
So give me the open mind that I had before

(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Oh, I'm a cynic
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Give me the open mind that I had before
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh) there's something missing darling, oh
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
I'm living with it
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh) 'cause I'm a cynic, darling, ah
(Oh-oh-oh-ooh)
Give me the open mind that I had before

I'm so passive, too sarcastic
Shut you out just out of habit
I don't know
So I spent five months out here treading water
Now I wonder why you bothered
I don't know
Let me go

Why do you keep reaching for my hand?
Do you see something I can't?
Why do you try to save me?
This fate is well deserved
I only make things worse
Why do you try to save me?

Have I served my sentence?
Learned my lesson?
Healed those wounds from my indiscretions?
I don't know
Am I still so selfish?
(?)
What do you see in my misdirections?
I don't know
Let me go

Why do you keep reaching for my hand?
Do you see something I can't?
Why do you try to save me?
This fate is well deserved
I only make things worse
Why do you try to save me?

And sometimes I pray
That maybe I will change
Into who you think I am

Why do you keep reaching for my hand?
Do you see something I can't?
Why do you try to save me?
This fate is well deserved
I only make things worse
Why do you try to save me?
Why do you try to save me?

Oh, she hates to say goodbye
So she only says goodnight
When she goes, she stops to look behind
And I'll sink

Oh, she sleeps with one eye closed
So she can tell when she's alone
Oh no, yeah, summer comes and goes
But I'll sink

Oh, she's the sunset in the West
Oh, she's sleep when I need rest
And though the ship can be saved yet
And oh, for you, I would never sink again
And oh, for you, I would never sink again

Oh, she promises to write
I know it's harder if she tries
So I have grown to tell myself a lie
And I'll sink
Time slows to let me talk alone
High hopes don't last me very long
Winding roads, they never seem to stop
And I'll sink

Oh, she's the sunset in the West
Oh, she's sleep when I need rest
And though the ship can be saved yet
And oh, for you, I would never sink again
And oh, I would never sink again
And oh, I would never sink again
And oh, I would never sink again
And oh, for you, I would never sink again
And oh, for you, I would never sink again

Oh, she's the path in which I tread
Oh, she's the shiver up my neck
Oh, she's the blood rush to my head
Oh, for you, I would never sink again
And oh, for you, I would never sink again

You knew me in my spiral
Happiness tidal
It comes and it goes
And I sank into the water
How I drifted farther
Away from the coast

Sometimes I get this feeling
I was breathing someone else's air
Two thousand miles away from home
Under that sky, I tried to make my peace with fear

So I guess I'll build a boat and live alone
Lord, I'll be the lost one (oh, oh)
Oh, I'll teach myself to swim and live in my head
And make sense of all my thoughts
And if I never reach the land or live again
Lord, I'll be just fine (oh, oh)
Yeah, I'll drift until I'm dead, and until then
I'll be the lost one, I'll be the lost one

I fell into a pattern
Where nothing would matter if I didn't care
To be so close to a coastline
To know that in my life, I'll never be there

'Cause sometimes I get this feeling
I've been breathing someone else's air

So I guess I'll build a boat and live alone
Lord, I'll be the lost one (oh, oh)
Oh, I'll teach myself to swim and live in my head
And make sense of all my thoughts
And if I never reach the land or live again
Lord, I'll be just fine (oh, oh)
Yeah, I'll drift until I'm dead, and until then
I'll be the lost one, I'll be the lost one

And it wears me out
All the demons underneath the tide
But I sink like stone
But all the weight of all these dreams of mine
And I wish you well
You can't save someone too far to find
But it's wearing me out
And it's stormy in the sea tonight, in the sea tonight

So I guess I'll build a boat and live alone
Lord, I'll be the lost one (oh, oh)
Oh, I'll teach myself to swim and live in my head
And make sense of all my thoughts
And if I never reach the land or live again
Lord, I'll be just fine (oh, oh)
Yeah, I'll drift until I'm dead, and until then
I'll be the lost one, I'll be the lost one

Do you remember drinking in the parking lot
By the trail head?
I see you for a moment, then the morning comes
And it's wasted
We listen to, "Only The Good Die Young"
And we laugh about its statement
We walk in the same direction, but we both got lost
And you raged in my impatience

Did you find what you were looking for?
Some escape from your skin
You know that place you were dreaming of
Where all light comes in
I hope you know I grew my hair out long
And your sister's just fine
I keep burning my bridges down
Just to keep you alive

Ooh
Ooh
Ooh

Do you remember looking from the fire tower at the sunset?
Jack White, prophetic on my speakers, we were going to be friends
Yeah, I guess I just got busy, only saw you every other weekend
Lord, I just moved to this city, hoping noise drowns out the regret

But did you find what you were looking for?
Some escape from your skin
You know that place you were dreaming of
Where all light comes in
I hope you know I grew my hair out long
And your sister's just fine
I keep burning my bridges down
Just to keep you alive

Ooh
Just to keep you alive
Ooh
Ooh

They tell me, "grief is just love letting go"
They say it like milk has been spilled on the floor
They say they don't know who I am anymore
Well, I just have never shown anger before

Still haven't found what I'm looking for
Some escape from my sin
You know that place you been dreaming of
Where all light comes in
And I'll keep growing my hair out long
Just to cover my eyes
And I'll keep playing that goddamn song
If it keeps you alive

Ooh
If it keeps you alive
Ooh
Ooh
I just wanna keep you alive