No one ever told me it would be so hard
To forget your name
No one ever said it would be this way
I've gotta hide my scars
No one ever told me it would be so hard
To forget your name
No one ever said that you would turn away
But I'm glad that you're gone
The rain fogs my window, I decide to stay in bed
The pictures on my wall always make me reminisce
I think of all the good times, dread all of the bad times
Man I was a clown back then, how the time flies
Growin' up is scary man, that's somethin' I'll admit
But we all gotta do it, there's no point in hidin' it
I miss my innocent youth, and I miss all of the friends
That I made throughout the years, it's a trip how all this went
Away before we grasped everything we already had
True friendships never die, so I guess that's why I'm sad
You told me I'm overreacting, but it's just how my mind works
Exploding off like fireworks, I've seen so much my eyes hurt
I close my eyes again to try to fall back asleep
The feeling of your hands still gliding over me
Your arms are wrapping 'round me like you're sliding into a fleece
My anxiety's warm embrace cuddles me up and never leaves Yeah
No one ever told me it would be so hard Be so hard
To forget your name
No one ever said it would be this way Be this way
I've gotta hide my scars
No one ever told me it would be so hard Be so hard
To forget your name
No one ever said that you would turn away Turn away
But I'm glad that you're gone
That chorus had to do with the things I thought you'd never do
Like invade my head, lay in my bed, and hold me 'till I'm blue
Anxiety, I'm through with you, depression, bitch I'm over you
You ain't gon' rule me anymore, I'm taking back control from you
Every line in this verse is meant to repay for all the pain
Every single word for every cut and every blade
Every single letter for all the people I let down
Every single syllable for the times I wish I'd drown
I said I'm f*ckin' over you, now get out of my head
You had your chance and you had your fun, I'm ruling in your stead
Control my mind for several years, and now I'm back to take revenge
Repay the debts with everybody and try to go and make amends
With these words, I banish you; imma still be standing true
You ain't gon' do me like that, I'll never fall and make a fool
Out of myself, I really wish that I had learned sooner
That once I love myself, the sky will also turn bluer Aye
No one ever told me it would be so hard Be so hard
To forget your name
No one ever said it would be this way Be this way
I've gotta hide my scars
No one ever told me it would be so hard Be so hard
To forget your name
I felt threatened now I'm back again
My cells trekking through the rapture's end
A pacifist and activist for mental health, I practiced it
I sat and said I'm actin' dead 'cause I don't know what happens next
When everything around you suddenly begins to vanish
And the ones you called friends make their distance so outlandish
The doctor says I'm buggin' 'cause I fluttered to a higher plane
When sunken ships erupt and shit, you expect me not to treasure it
How? We see the world through different eyes
You see it as a crumbling ball of hate in wicked times
I see it as my generation plagued with sickened minds
There's probly truth in both, but we'll never know until we die Yeah
I had a little problem with alcohol
It wasn't really a problem, everybody had it
The idea is that you always have a little bit of fear
Like, you have to just keep at it
You know, it's a day by day
I was violating my standards quicker than I could lower them
You know, no, I'm not always fun to be around
And there is this thing of "yeah the world sees one thing
And what am I like at home?
Different because I can't always be home
Alright listen, I wanna say one thing
Everybody here has a dream right? Yeah
Everybody? Every single person in here? Yeah
Raise your hand if you have a dream
Make sure you follow your dreams
F*ck what anybody else tells you to do
Follow your dreams, you hear me? Yeah
Everyone have a good day, alright? Yeah