Why did you just do that?
'Cause of what you said earlier
About being happy?
That's not the most important thing
The great loves are the crazy ones
There's a difference
Between a great love
And the right love
I'm feelin' like I'm trapped inside my own insecurities
Tryna find the light, but I ran away from purity
I'm askin' for forgiveness to try and heal the sickness
But I don't wanna risk it if I sacrifice my image
Tell me what is left when this life is said and done
Is it only darkness and askin' what would come
If I stuck it out longer, and didn't always ponder
At how my past has conjured the fact that I'm a goner?
Tell me what's left when everybody leaves
Tell me what's left if I fail to succeed
Tell me what's left when I rise from the ashes
Just for more practice at packing my passions
I gotta tell you doc, that I'm scared of what's to come
My family's countin' on me to go and make it to number one
I'm tryin' not to let 'em down but the stress, it eats away at me
But I still keep it pushin' just to be the one they pay to see
God? I've already asked him for help
But he won't pick up the phone because it's clipped to his belt
I've tried to leave him voicemails in the form of a prayer
But he never called me back so I feel torn and embarrassed
I believe that he's there
But it's just so hard when you can't see him here
Tryna trust the words of humans that are trapped in despair
Thinkin' they have all the answers 'cause of their robes and their chairs
Tell me what's left if I slip into the dark
Tell me what's left I trip and break my heart
Tell me what's left if I skip ahead and start
Tryna trust somebody new just to break it all apart?
Why am I not content? Why'd I lose my faith?
I know that for the first session, I've got a lot to say
But my mind is always racing and I'm tryna find a way
Just to make it chill out before it puts me in the grave
I don't have all of the answers and I'm sure you don't either
But I'm askin' for your help so I can try and find the secret
If you help me find the cause, then I'll attack it 'til it's gone
Then my mind will a be clean slate for me to build upon
We'll work on this together, and hopefully make progress
I just wanna get better, and escape all of this nonsense
I'm puttin' all my faith in you, don't make me regret that
And hopefully you'll grow to see exactly where my head's at