Not Charles - one glitter at a time Lyrics

Ever since I can remember I've been afraid of dying
I was terrified of the dark the unknown
Not knowing what could happen or when
Little did I know my worst nightmare would one day be
Me
One day I wasn't afraid anymore
I just wanted the pain to go away
I wanted to find peace
And I couldn't see any light in the world I was living in
The weight of the world was too much to bare
I was scared of everything
Everything else but dying
As the darkness of my ghosts pulled me further and further in
All hope faded with it
Eventually I didn't recognise myself in the mirror
The things I once enjoyed no longer gave me pleasure
I didn't feel anything
Apathy took over
And the spark I once had the glitter
It was all gone
I no longer had the strength to ask for help
I'd become a shell of myself
And I felt like a burden to everyone around me
I thought everyone would be better off without me
They just didn't know it
But I was wrong
I was lucky
Because the people surrounding me caught me
Just as the last glitter shed of my skin
They ripped off the glitter mask I'd been waring for far too long
And burnt it
These masks suffocate you from the inside
So that the world can't see
Until your out of breath
They surrounded me with love and patience
Until I could start piecing myself together
One glitter at a time
There will always be a couple missing pieces of glitter on me
A reminder
For me to never put that mask on ever again
There is light in the darkness
There's a whole world filled with glitter
And things places people that feel like sunshine
There is so much more in store for you
And as hopeless as it may seem at times
You will feel those things again
I promise
One glitter at a time
And if you need some to get started
Here's some of mine