Novae - Smoke Lyrics

I yearn to self destruct
Never feel like I'm enough
Wanna sew my eyelids shut
Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood
I burn & scorch my lungs
Never taste it on my tongue
Wanna feel what it's like to run
Without my feet in the earth getting stuck

To my thoughts I may succumb
I've learned to trust my gut
My head hurts, heart thinks too much
Waiting for the day I'm snuffed
Stuff my throat with ash & blunts
Living under a black sun
I'm feeling colorless today
Like every pigments fading gray
I wish I could just feel okay
And not this throbbing in my brain
I ruminate, drilling through the pain
The same longing for a way out
Some kind of means of escape
But even still, I stay
Immobilized by memories framed
(In my mind)
I hold on to the ghosts as they fade
Dancing to the moonlight's melody as we sway
But in the morning, all the music dissipates
Phantoms evaporate, they're gone without a trace

I yearn to self destruct
Never feel like I'm enough
Wanna sew my eyelids shut
Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood
I burn & scorch my lungs
Never taste it on my tongue
Wanna feel what it's like to run
Without my feet in the earth getting stuck
I yearn to self destruct
Never feel like I'm enough
Wanna sew my eyelids shut
Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood
I burn & scorch my lungs
Never taste it on my tongue
Wanna feel what it's like to run
Cause I keep coming back after I've been shunned