NRealistic - UNSPOKEN Lyrics

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Now I look at myself and think, what am I working towards?
Finding inner peace is something I am battling for
Deep inside of myself is just an internal war,
Don't matter what arms I have; these bullets don't work no more
Visions got me twisted (got me twisted)
It feels like my own life isn't even in my hands, Goddam,
But nobody really listens (really listens)
Everybody's looking for the way to get themselves ahead, my fam
I'm scared to go the distance
People always tryna diminish everything they against
Why am I 'fraid of my feelings? (my feelings)
I don't really want to fear this
No more
L try to hide myself from the emotions
With everything I'm doing
When everything is failing I feel useless
Then I start to lose it
I don't know why I let these things
Get to me more than they should
I should Really learn from it but,
I don't know how I can get out of here
I've been trapped in submission
All my life I've tried to get out of this prison
They got me held down tight, left in terrible conditions
And it's got me questioning myself and my intuition
I just can't seem to figure out how all this happened
And how to cancel out
All these fears I have for myself and what has shattered
My confidence throughout
I'm so confined between these walls
I can't deny, I've done my wrongs,
But these emotions I have inside has kept me jaded
And I hate when

(Every time I can't get out of my mind)
I don't show it
Keep it all inside of me
(The more that I try the less I find)
I'm so broken
(Why am I still lost)
Why can't I break free from these emotions inside
(I spend all of my time writing all of these songs)
This is haunting me

No one knows what it's like
To be pulled left and right at the same time
I'm just keeping quiet while I stay and fight
Justifying why I am
Unspoken