Nuckafternamos - The Moment I Knew Lyrics

I woke up this morning feeling so great and feeling so grand
I stand up from my bed, smiling from what's in my head
Thinking how we got so much stronger since I was dead
And I know we got so much farther to go
How further, don't know
I'm happy you're so happy now with us
Enough that you wanna stay and stay for the show
You told me that we're better now and can you repeat it
'Cause right now I need it
'Cause when I talked to you today it seemed like you we're kinda defeated
So can you repeat it
Last night you we're so loving and it felt so much safer, it felt so much tamer
It felt like we might actually have a story for later, I'll write it on paper
But now you're acting distant, and it's kinda worrying
And I'm not hurrying to find out why you're acting this way
It's only Monday, I need to stay calm and collective
Reflective
On how I've been neglecting
All the signs, Jesus Christ
I'd be the world's worst detective
Take a step back, and gain a new perspective (F*ck)
I'm getting in my head again
Gotta take my medicine to sleep
So i can think better than how I was when this shit all began
One day
It's only been one day
And I'm crazy, manic, panicking
From the way you're saying and displaying
That you love me
And if you told half the truth
Would that mean that half of you
Loves me
And that was the moment I knew
And that was the moment I knew
The truth
There's nothing more that I can do
And that was the moment I knew
The truth
Honestly
I should of seen this sooner
The calm before the storm, but the storm ain't in the future
It's right now, in the present
And right now shit ain't pleasant
I'm dwelling on the past cuz our future is bleak
By the end of the week
We'll be over, I don't know her, I don't even know how to speak, 'cause I'm feeling so weak
I got a couple confession to make, I haven't been great
I've been losing my faith in you
It's been making me stay up late
I don't even know what to do when you can't even tell the truth
And I'll face it
I'm just so f*cking basic
Classic nice guy routine, and that's just an understatement
Manipulative kinda, but that's just what I was raised in
You get distance, even when I get persistent
You don't act like you want me when I'm around
You're so resistant to my love
So can you blame for the things I've done consistently like
I'm off the market but I'm thinking bout my ex girl
And next girl, don't know who
You made me a better me
I made you a better you
But we grown apart
Sometimes it's like I'm in the dark about the darkness in your heart
Don't know if you're still loyal to me or preparing for when you want to depart
It's been a few days, you haven't changed, and I'm getting so frantic
And I don't think it's too soon for me to start feeling so manic
Oh God I'm starting to panic
And if you told half the truth
Would that mean that half of you
Loves me
And that was the moment I knew
And that was the moment I knew
The truth
There's nothing more that I can do
And that was the moment I knew
The truth
Ain't this the f*cking day that you been waiting for
I feel so sore, fell on the floor
It's something that I can't ignore
I just can't do this anymore
How could a month of recovery be gone in a week
We were on a winning streak
Now I think we hit our peak
Today, to me, you wouldn't speak
A week
Took just a f*cking week
To tear me down, threw the crown
Left my throne on my own
From the top I fell, defeat
I woke up this morning just knowing I'm done
I'm counting the minutes right now one by one
You're making it obvious leaving me stunned
You're breaking me like everyone
You owe me so much but you're giving me none
F*ck me over again and I had just enough
I drank 'cause of you
I quit just for you
Two months, I'll be back on that shit 'cause of you
And by then we'll be broken
Oh god I keep choking
The way you talk makes me think
This case is closing
You said you were happy last night
You said you were happy that's right
You're just avoiding a fight
Waiting till the time is right by telling me lies
And you were so far from truth
And that was the moment I knew
When you couldn't even say I love you
When you couldn't even say I love you, f*ck
And if you told half the truth
Would that mean that half of you
Loves me
And that was the moment I knew
And that was the moment I knew
The truth
There's nothing more that I can do
And that was the moment I knew
The truth