Numbmoi - Lost on Me (feat. Animist) Lyrics

What do you know
What do you see
Don't got a name for it when i rest in peace
I've never even seen the sea
It's scary feelings lately

I woke up today, I had to put things in place
Because lately they've been all outta whack
Got to run it back
TD, running back
CDs, bridges, burning that
And she's here burning wax
Meet me at the bridge
Pray for all the kids, about to blow my lid
Wondering what the f*ck life is
I'd ask my parents but they're still asking questions
Not even to mention
The stressing, depression, left field vision
I feel hopeless and abandoned
I ain't f*cking with no mandem
I get lost in the tandem
They used to be my fam then
I was wearing masks then
But they unmasked them
When i had dreams I got lost in
I disappeared for a summer and not one of them cared
They all got dumber and I got more scared
I didn't talk to anybody, laid my soul bare
I'm a caricature of myself, Mr. Bipolar

I want to see the beach
But it's out of reach
I want to see the beach
But it's out of reach

Like damn
I really think I am a solipsist
My mind is the universe, identity anonymous
I'm selfish in a sense, simplistic when I'm in an arguement
I'll let you have the upperhand cause winning ain't my target
I never wanted to be the very best at anything I do
The anti Ash Ketchum, probably even have a Raichu
I remember my first Haiku, watch how my eye move
Lazy eye is insightful, split stain mindful
Yeah
This is early morning shower raps
I think I just realized that I'll never get my powers back
I perfected all my combos, and even all my counter attacks
That all went to waste when my house burnt to ashes
But it doesn't even matter
I was an unplugged controller
Thought I was making moves while I was really in the stroller
Mind playing tricks, never believed in beholder
Now my reality's amiss, hope my game's never over

I want to see the beach
But it's out of reach
I want to see the beach
But it's out of reach

I wanna see you
I wanna feel you
I never want to
Want to leave you
Punch Drunk Love, feeling dumb
Sometimes I hate myself
But I love you, and sometimes I blame myself
But it ain't true, I been drowning in deep blues
Painting myself in the green
And I know it's lost on you what the actual f*ck I mean
But I completely promise you you're everything I see
When I sleep
So if you give me sometime
I can explain, in the meantime
Made apollo17 and I'm still on the moon
Shit felt way better with you in my room