My mother has been squinting her eyes
She's getting older
Dozens of silverfish are swimming in her hair
Twirling around her face, smiling and calling me there
I would have never picked it
It never made much sense
To die and to die and to die every day
Over and over and over again until I'm really dead
When you told me you got menopause
You don't know exactly what that was
Telling me it's just a phase of life
In a few more phases, you'll leave me behind
With nothing but my thoughts or photographs
Dad was drunk for more than half of that
I saw a new wrinkle
On your face today
One day
My mom
Grew up
She had to leave
The nest
The twigs
The leaves
The eggs
She flew
Away
Somewhere
And lay her head
To rest
It's such a big commitment
Dying but living too and
Neither is worth the price
Either demands of you
One day I'm gonna lose you
One day you're gonna go
With all the things that made me
And all the things I know
When I saw you really aging
My entire world started changing
Wish I had the time to make amends
For all of the stupid shit I said
Heal all of the wounds you left behind
So the vision of you living in my mind
Is one I can gladly, gladly die
Beside