Pretty Girls Video (MV)

I know what it's like to be in pain
That's my life that's my game
That's my life that's my game
And I know what it's like to be afraid
Everyday, of the thoughts all inside of my brain
And I know what it's like to be loveless
All alone all alone and ashamed and ashamed
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Because their words can destroy me easily
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Yeah they make me feel alive
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Because their words can destroy me easily
And the pain that I feel feels good to me
And I feel like I'm alive
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Because their words can destroy me easily
And the shit that I hear near constantly
Yeah it kills me down inside
I wish I was a bird so I could fly away
And sing a happy song that I could get people to play
I wish a single one of my wishes would just come true
But then I wouldn't fear the things I already do
I'm afraid of loneliness in my lonely place
I'm afraid of showing up and showing my face
I'm afraid of what's inside my heart in the dark
And my heart in the dark is the darkest of all the parts
I couldn't tell you what the future is
Or what I see in it
'Cause all I see in my future is fear and rusty beer cans
And PCP and ketamine
And marijuana fever dreams
And schadenfreude to the extreme
'Cause I'm my own worst enemy
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Because their words can destroy me easily
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Yeah they make me feel alive
I like when pretty girls are mean to me
Because their words can destroy me easily
And the pain that I feel feels good to me
And I feel like I'm alive