Ohsobrkn - Closed Casket Lyrics

Honestly I'm too scared right now
Got a lot to do
I don't care right now
Yeah I've been the lid to the cup
How I bottle it all up
But I got a lot to share right now
I've been thinking that
Life might be better without me
I try to do better
But I always doubt me
I wanna be happy
My head won't allow me
Who put all this water inside of my room
Bruh I feel like drowning
I've been staying in my head too much
I've been in my bed
Feeling dead too much
Haven't had a good day
Its been two months
Man I'm losing motivation
And I cannot take this
It's way too much
Bro where is home?
Got friends
But I'm so alone
I know God's tryna call
I can hear the phone
But I've been hitting decline
And my heart is cold
God I'm sorry I've been gone
But I need you close
Oh yeah I've been tripping
I say that I'm a Christian
I say that I'm Godly
But acting so different
I'm needing repentance
Got lost in my living
I know that He's risen
It's time that I listen
I've been afraid
Deep in the waves
Deep in my guilt
Now I'm feeling ashamed
I need some prayer
To heal all the pain
Fixing my heart
While He's breaking the chains

I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket
Open eyes
In a never-ending blackness
Feel my dreams
Getting harder to imagine
I'm getting wooden splinters
From the coffin that I'm trapped in
And I don't wanna lose you
I'm not really feeling
Like I use to
God I need your light
In a world of a never-ending blackness
I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket

I feel like I'm buried alive
I don't got nowhere to hide
I fill up my mental with lies
And all of the time
They tell me I'm fine
Or they just tell me to quit
Tell me I suck, and I start giving in
Rip all the pages I wrote with this pen
My doubt builds a casket
And throws me within
Running away from all the pain
I can never escape
No matter the pace
The place
I can never erase
Running circles around myself
But never winning the race
Instead running from my pain
I probably need to go pray
Why am I breathing
I feel like a demon
I know I'm alive
But I don't know the reason
I've been overthinking
And God you've been telling me
That you're enough
And I finally believe it

I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket
Open eyes
In a never-ending blackness
Feel my dreams
Getting harder to imagine
I'm getting wooden splinters
From the coffin that I'm trapped in
And I don't wanna lose you
I'm not really feeling
Like I use to
God I need your light
In a world of a never-ending blackness
I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket