ok average - Blade Lyrics

Can't describe it exactly
When the blade breaks the skin
It's such a beautiful feeling
It takes me back, it takes me
To a place far beyond
A place I seem to belong
I feel only the throbbing, the pain
It's a shame
That so soon after
The guilt settles in
And then
And then the real bad thoughts begin
I think
Hell of a mom
Why did you leave so quickly
Hell of a dad why are you always so sickly
And I think
Baby me
Why did you do this, what have you done
Baby me now you sit through it
And wait till it's gone
I'm just trying to feel something now
Something better than this
Something better than nothing
Oh, something's just gotta be better
Than this and somehow
It don't seem real
That's simply the way I don't feel
All day, every day, most of the time
And since you've been gone
Since you've been gone I've got
Everything on my mind all at once
Always the same song it has been months
And it's always about you
What you left behind
Hell I'm so angry you know how I'm trying
I really try like
Hell of a mom
Why did you leave so quickly
Hell of a dad why are you always so sickly
And I think
Baby me
Why did you do this, what have you done
Baby me now you sit through it
And wait till it's gone
It feels glorious, wonderful, stupid and bad
Glorious, wonderful, nasty and mad
Glorious, wonderful, selfish and sad
It feels glorious, wonderful, stupid and bad
Glorious, wonderful, selfish and sad
Glorious, wonderful, nasty and mad
It feels glorious, wonderful, stupid and bad
Glorious, wonderful, nasty and mad
Glorious, wonderful, selfish and sad
It feels glorious