Every time I think about it, it just makes me sick
When time was tested, never stressed, and locked in with the click
I always knew success was coming, life started moving quick
Sometimes I think about their decisions and the life they picked
I made it out, but I can't say the same for some of them
I've seen my brothers lose it all because of something dumb
My momma asks if we're still cool and if I talk to them
I gotta lie 'cause I'm ashamed of what they've done become
Went from honor roll to toting blicks and body tats
The same kid that held it down and always had my back
When we went our separate ways, I tried to keep in tact
You slimed me out and left me stranded; ain't forgetting that
I thank the people in my life that never went and changed
'Cause I done been through trauma; I done seen a lot of pain
My heart's been broke beyond repair; I'll never be the same
I wish that God could take control before I go insane
You did some things I can't forget, but then, I still forgive you
Worrying 'bout a slutty ho is the last of my issues
You can say you're sorry all you want; it's gon' continue
'Cause at heart, that's who you are-it's the demon within you
I'm just speaking from my heart and I'm just being real
If you've been broken down, then trust me, I know how you feel
For all my brothers struggling, God's gon' take the wheel
It might take some time, but I promise you're gonna heal
It might take a couple of months; you gon' be okay
I promise God's gon' set you straight to see another day
This life ain't easy; gotta play your cards to find a way
You probably think I made this up, but that's the life of Jay
Yea yea
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