Onethium - Blessed With Despair Lyrics

Hell is not fire and brimstone
It is the days faded to months
The bleak ache that is ever numb
It is the months waned into years
So did the stars in my eyes die
My youth ebbed with the tides of time
I felt not myself, and indeed lost such meaning
Alcohol flowed, a façade of the warmth I'd lost
Loved ones whispered concern and fear of my dark path
My wife and child's love turned hopeless, then to despair
My once bleeding heart then decayed
Wounded and weeping an ichor
Dull this damn pain
Give me some peace
Tragedy, one night I found myself
Bottle after bottle at the bar far from home
A wildfire had broken out
My abode engulfed by the flame
Dad was not at home to protect
Shame 'pon my name

I am no man

Blessed be those made gods image
Blessed be those who despair and rot
And so I begged for a savior I'd never felt
And indulged the devil given too many dues
My family
My failure
Ever lingering visage a haunting image
Straight to my last breath, my last day
Delivered by my poison, my escapism
Now my organs fail as I speak my final words
"I take not the hand that never fed"
And for my final utterance I am god damned