Only Lonely - Mind Games Lyrics

Allow me to introduce myself
I am alone, I am in hell
Thought I knew what the f*ck was wrong with me
Sitting here suffering so quietly
I'm all in my head trying to figure it out
None of it real, so why do I have my doubts
Tired of the hatred, I feel insane
Everything disorganized inside my brain

Tired of tears, tired of all the games
I'm too f*cked up, no I'm not the same
Tired of tears, tired of all the games
I'm too f*cked up, no I'm not the same

What they did to me
Its what they did to me
Seems like everyone could be on their side
Its what they did to me
From what was done to me
But I know that its all a lie
Do I deserve it, is it what I need
Feels like the universe wants this all to happen to me
Am I responsible for all the pain I got
Do I deserve this wave of unrealistic emotion because I am nothing
Its not their fault, but it is
Its not my fault, its his
All the anger, all the times it has come back to me
All the times my mind has broken down
Shoved back in my face, yeah it comes back around

Will I overcome this
Will it all just kill me
Can I survive this
I am stronger I know, I can cause there's always hope
I am still here, I am still in hell
Wake up to be around them everyday
Its like there's no escape
It is hopeless
And I know I damn well don't deserve it
(Don't deserve it, don't deserve it)
Don't deserve it
(Don't deserve it, don't deserve it)