Out of Place - Letting Go Ain't Easy Lyrics

Guess i had enough of trying to make it all work
Now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt
If i only was the way my mind worked
Hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt

Have to say i tried
But guess trying wasn't best
When the thought of my perceived worth was worthless
And hurt goes best with stress
Less
The flesh
Finds ways to best upset
Off text
And full of the regret
Though left
Can't hold breath
Thinking backwards steps
Need to move forth
But i'm stuck in a particular gear
The mention of her name in vicinity of ear
Has me unclear
Which way
I really need to steer
Alone daily shaking from the fear
On the outside looking in
Like my life's been commandeered
Wanted to adhere
But now i'm just another peer
Left here
When i wanted be tight near
Slight fear
My life ended right here
With mention of a separation slicing nice ears

Guess i had enough of trying to make it all work
Now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt
If i only was the way my mind worked
Hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt