triedtocall. Video (MV)

Yeah
Guilt and apprehension
Taking up space time
I'm just questioning whether I'm wasting
My seconds pouring everything
I got into these sessions
Knowing sometimes
It won't bring any concessions
Or profit for my profession
I'm burning a hole in my pocket
Confessions
Should I listen to my friends and family
Telling me I should stop it
But see really I ain't really into gossip
That ain't gonna put me in a rocket
That's just why I'm adding fuel to the fire
Feeding the desire to leave this office
Death and taxes
I feel like I've already got my losses
See this game there's too many bosses
There's too many knots and crosses
I tally up everyday
I still can't figure out what the cost is
What's the options
I threw a coin down the well
And it feel with mrsfortune
Just another burst bubble
The burst bubble
See I'm losing self control
Back with my old ho
And she's already undressing
This isn't what we decided inside
The therapy session
Tired of being wreckless
Tired of using so many words in a message
I don't really wanna write those letters
But you know I'm an addict
That's addicted to finding pleasure
Emotional riding this ocean
I'm tryna be frank and open
As I'm scoping my way through this pyramid
To finding treasure
Never say never
Don't try wink in my eyes
I know those lies
Their very clever
That's why what I've buried in my mind
Is fortified
I got the appetite
You can't stomach it
You always getting mortified
I'm demoralised
You should've known nothing lasts
Old photographs in the trash
I walk this path on my own
Why you think I never get attached
Why you think I'm always getting dressed in black
Why you think I'm infatuated with writing raps
Why you think all those years everybody said
I was a psychopath
Why you think I hit the road
And never chose to call you back
But you know I'm all cap
Cause I still tried call you back