paintriiip - I Ain't in My Right Mind Lyrics

They treat me like a peasant though I'm eating like a king
People used to tell me "keep on doing your thing"
But never showed any support and claimed to be on my team
Till everybody else did, racking up on the streams
And that ain't nothing but some numbers, that don't make who I am
All the people I grew up with finally say I'm the man
Dawg I'm just now getting posted by the ones in my fam
I think it's strange when former classmates is acting like fans
I think it's funny you ain't know me till I got my name up
Except you did, and I ain't famous, all of that shit's made up
Why the f*ck it take so long to show them what I'm made of?
I can't wait for somebody to say "paintriiip you changed up"
Changed from what? I ain't nobody special
I'm depressed, hella demons haunt me up in my mental
It's hard to keep this momentum when I keep breaking the pencil
That I been using to write the story of mine, man I been through
So much shit, and I'm tired of it all
Sometimes I wanna take a glock and blow my brains on the wall
But I don't talk about it, sure got an album bout it
Got a lot of shit to say, but lately all my thoughts are crowded
It's hard to keep them in order if I could ever catch them
I think so often, I often forget about my passion
I been in this hole forever while the days is passing
I fake a smile and wear that shit like it's the latest fashion
Slit wrists as accessories, I got the drip
Ain't met with Lucy in a minute, think I need a trip
Weed been making me anxious, it don't agree with this
Mind of mine, I find I mine too deep, to be at peace in this
World, so many questions
So little answers, so many guesses
And they tell me what's the point? You ain't gon find them in this lifetime
I think they tryna tell me I ain't in my right mind
No, I ain't in my right mind
I ain't in my right mind