Paradox AON - Dying Love Lyrics

Dying love
I'm tryna make it last
Life passing fast
Gotta grip the past
Look back in pain
So much to gain but not a single win
Broken soul but ill sing again
I'll sing again
Don't die today
I got more to say
I'm so mortified
I've seen homicide
I've seen mothers cry
Because a mother cries on the other side no switching sides
She can feel the pain
Dont wanna feel the pain
Live to die I kinda feel the same
Don't tell me why cause I don't understand
Don't trust a man no shaking hands
Got bloody hands
Tell Kristal I'm so stressed I still think about our sex
I keep hoping something better come my way
I'm always late
I'm right here but I can't even feel my feelings
I'm emotionally willing but ain't shit left here to give
I know loving me aint easy
See my life and what you see
I'm so broken I believe that death is close I see ghosts
We're all just living just to cry
Full of pain and then you die
But I'm alive
I'm alive I'm alive
I can't concentrate I'm willing
I keep losing focus really
I'm just tryna make a million
From a drug addicted feelin
Bitch I'm shooting for the stars
Tell ell me how far they are really
I reach out and touch the sky
Ask myself like all the time if were living just to die
Than what's the point
Tell me who you love
Tell me why you love
Tell me everything about you
Are you lying love
That shit just ain't what it seem I am dying love
I don't understand the point I can fix it all with drugs
I could lose it all in moments time is way more than components
Tell me how the f*ck I know this
I've been lower than the lowest
Ain't no love when you in hell

Looking back and well
I wish you well
Gotta make it right this time
I've failed so many times
I know life ain't mine
I know life gets ripped apart like f*ck em all I need my heart
Ain't no living life without you
I reminisce all the time
You left remenants in my mind
I keep seeing you I'm blind
I know the futures undefined
Even if the stars aligned and somehow it all intertwined
And you somehow are by my side
It still ain't right because I see you in my mind
Please don't let me fall away
Tell me how you ever loved me
Tell me how we let our love become so ugly
I'm so sorry I don't know
I guess time will show
We was never meant to be and thats okay with me
I'm just glad I felt your love just know it stays with me
I hope you pray for me because I pray for you
I pray for you
I pray you doing everything you ever wanted life can be so haunting
But I got to tell you something
Your all I ever wanted
Your all I've ever wanted

Feel my pain just feel my pain
Look out these dirty eyes I don't understand my cry's for love and no one near replys
For love i'll kill a man no lies
I look deep into the skies and I can't help but visualize
A perfect world with no demise
I've searched the world to no surprise
Came up empty I've realized
That only I can beat the odds
Life ain't really what it seems when you can feel what people feeling
Is this life we live for real or we just passing through the streams
What if God can't really see
What if we are all that exists
What if we are all that is defined
What if I love so hard that I let it control my mind
I been hurt but I'm the culprit
A vine grows where no sun flows
In search of the light
Up and maybe it might
Reach a point where he is enlightened
Where it stops searching and just uses the air to brighten
But no matter the fight in
It will one day wither away with no understanding of

Death or life or love or hate or her
Or will we