Paradox AON - Never Alone Lyrics

Paradox
All or Nothing
It's the heart of me, the heart of me
It's the mother f*ckin heart of me
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Lately
Sleeps been coming slow
I can't even close my eyes, the feelings of a ghost
Been haunting me
Don't talk to me
It's some things I don't show
Rest in peace to Joe
And rest in peace to Jeff
Man, rest in peace the rest
What a mess we can't beat death
Different tongues up out my breath
Tryna understand the test of time
My rhymes
That's where I find my peace
But I still feel obsolete
Walking through the rain, can't find myself
Never did shit but lie myself
Sorry to the ones I hurt, I love
Know it don't show but I still got love
Know we don't talk but I still might talk
Like we in the same room, I admit my faults
Only reason that I rap, gotta let my wrongs be known, oh
Maybe one day it can help another man
My addictions got control of me
Control of me
It's over me
And please don't let me fall asleep

Maybe this time will be different
This time will be different
It's what everything keeps telling me
Just don't lie to me
Like this time will be different
But can you tell me what's the difference

I don't know
But something deep inside
It keeps telling me to die
Like please don't let this be the time
I keep looking back on time
I've never felt like this alive
And they say life ain't but a dream
Well tell me how to wake my soul
I got addiction in my blood and all my dreams got f*cking stole
I guess I'll never know
What it feels like to be normal, I'm on a different road
So, approach me slow
Look I've lost so many battles
But this shit here's a war
And I still got breath
And I'm still on shore
And I'm still not sure where I'm going but I know God blessed me with so much
And I know love can build a soul up
And I keep praying for my hold up
That shits personal, remember hurtin dude
Took another life with a certain dude
I don't talk about this shit cause I'm hurtin' too
And up in Tennessee I was murkin too
Almost killed myself I admit a few
Nights I cried while I held the tool to my dome
Thinking out loud like God ain't home
I been praying so long
Look I've been prayin so long and maybe one day he might hear me but till then I'll be a lonely soul
And baby I ain't mean to cause you all that pain
But I still think about your name

Like maybe this time will be different
Maybe this time will be different
Maybe this time will be different
That's what everything keeps telling me
Just don't lie to me
Like this time will be different
Can you tell me what's the difference

Ain't shit different but I found a way
No religion gonna seal my fate
Tell me bout hell but I don't believe
What if I fell after all I'll leave
From the grave to a man with a lot achieved
And I am not a leaf, but I blow
I don't know how to grieve but I show
Blood in my heart, this beat is my flow
I am not me but either my soul got a higher power inside of my voice
I ain't got time to wait it's no choice
I ain't got time to hate I rejoice
Looking at everything I've made it through Momma
Now look at me
Now look at me
I know you proud
I don't know how
But something's got control of me
It's over me
Just please don't let me fall asleep

See there comes a point in every man's life where they got to face themselves
Just make sure you're ready to see who lookin back at you
All or nothing

Maybe this time will be different
It's what everything keeps telling me
Just don't lie to me
This time will be different
But can you tell me what's the difference