Pariah - Looking Back (feat. Hillary Chase) Lyrics

This introspection is giving me lessons
Counting pennies and simple blessings
When a younger me was second guessing
This hunger in my gut keep me seeking more
Got me fantasizing like I ain't always gonna be poor
Maybe it's a long shot, but I ain't looking back
Immortal heart forever beats upon the track
Gotta focus through the anger, the pain, the dreams, and panic attacks
Try to listen more before I react
It gets tough, when my patience is thin
Fighting my way through the dark Lighting my way from within
Writing my way through the pain
They say my name with a grin
I ain't ashamed to say I'm living in sin
I'm just tryna stay busy
The pain give me everything I need
Keep me pushing ahead
Stay with me, cuz I'm breaking my bread
Had a few that couldn't hang, got me seeing red
Gotta keep it moving, may the past stay dead

Take me for a drive
I'll let you in, I'll pull you up
Out of the dark, into the light
Do it differently this time
Take another road and make it right
Felt the connection in your eyes
I see a spark, I hold on tight
I let you fly

Days go slow, but time goes fast
I've been waiting on change, want this to pass
The anger deep inside of me
Crying out, got nothing to say
I let the rain wash this away
Only the lonely take their time with me
I let the devil choose its vice
A broken angel taking flight
They say that time will heal this crime
Pick up the pieces of my mind
The trauma playing stories live
I've gotta learn to save my life

Take me for a drive
I'll let you in, I'll pull you up
Out of the dark, into the light
Do it differently this time
Take another road and make it right
Felt the connection in your eyes
I see a spark, I hold on tight
I let you fly

I walked a thousand miles in these worn out boots
Spent my days spitting flame, while I raged to the groove
Found a truth in the sunrise with crimson eyes
By a river flowing lilac wine, hallelujah
Blessed with cursed memories
And all the life that one can taste upon the summer breeze
But yet the cold of winter's blast will cause the blood to freeze
In the wake of all these failures, it's eating me alive from inside
These mountains I'm facing are looming with certain doom
And if I don't go soon, I'll never see the light in the sky
So I ain't looking back, it's time to leave these mountains behind
Haunted for too long by the look in her eyes, burning inside
I want answers and I wish there was more
Losing grip on my life, and what it was before
Trying to reconcile the grey weather
They say better days are coming
But I'm screaming inside, and I just wish that I could fly

Take me for a drive
I'll let you in, I'll pull you up
Out of the dark, into the light
Do it differently this time
Take another road and make it right
Felt the connection in your eyes
I see a spark, I hold on tight
I let you fly