Mullin' it over
Struggle with sober
Sky's plummeting
Hum drumming
It's the current composure
Numb, dumbing
Wondering if the pain's closer to over
Souls slowly rollin' over
Satan's making his quota
Smiles the mask for battled demons
Like absinthe in exquisitely crafted flasks
A mastered craft of standing
Last amidst the aftermath
First to see the world burn
With a lighter in the air and a can of gas
What to do when a good guy only sees his bad?
Tell him look up into the sky when he has to ask
If his decisions still coincide with the master plan
And cut yourself some slack
When shit gets wack
Your soul's the last thing
That should be under attack
Homie and that's a fact
Reality is these the conversations
One has to have
When mirrors become too stained
To bare who's looking back
Standing face to face with the man
And never lookin' back
On the road to whole
Roll like an egg prayin' that I don't crack
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see ... How
But I know my time's now
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see... How
But I know my time's now
Never quite knew what depression was
Till I faced it head on
Lost the most important person to me
Inside my 2 arms
That was a point where I wanted
To face the Maker head on
Knowin' it woulda been a selfish decision
And dead wrong
Still had my family here
Though mama was gone
But it definitely felt painstaking
To find the strength to move on
But I did, and every day felt like doin' a bid
Slave to my pain, tears knowing
She wouldn't see her grandkids
Left me numb for the longest
Battle of the heart and the mind
To see who'd come out the strongest
Felt like family was dwindling
Slowly imploding
College years were suffering
I was slowly exploding
An "I don't give a f*ck" attitude
Was slowly growing
Relationships were blips on
The map of love, self worth was folding
But I knew I couldn't move forward
By staying withholding
Had to get up off the ground
Life was in need of molding
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see... How
But I know my time's now
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see... How
But I know my time's now
Holdin' on to never say never
But there's days I've had that were better
And I'm feeling that today is the day
I will rise to be my best ever
I finally learned mastery
Of self love was the crux
So when candles burn at both ends
I'll never give up
When the boat gets to sinking
I'll re-shift my thinking
Trust when planes get to fallin'
I'll take heed of my callin'
Dying to find dry eyes from all the ballin'
Clamoring through corridors of hope
Dimly lit, scarred knees from every trip
Guess I'm on the precipice
Of a major switch
Reality proves you gotta die
Before you truly live
Felt I gave all I could give
No human's devoid of sin
So I had to shed my skin
To let shine what was lyin' within
Had to align my mind's eye
With the lion within
Now I walk with pride
Head high with Jah
Let the fire begin!
I burn it up
Battle scars, I've earned enough
Gem under pressure
See the clarity from my cuts?
I'm looking up
New vision when gazing at the sun
Not the only one, but the only one
To do all that I've done
When endless roads and
Concrete was all I knew
Been implanted in the pavement
Now the word'll see the rose that grew
Word to my momma, to my father
I'll show you the truth
Just watch me do what I do
I'm doing it all just for you!
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see... How
But I know my time's now
In my time here I done seen so much
Colder than the ground
When it gets tough
Even when I rise
Sometimes I don't even see... How
But I know my time's now
In my time here I done seen enough
So as long as I'm around
I'ma stand tough
And every day I rise
I know God reminds me... How
It's cuz my time's now