Paul D Jones - The Fear Lyrics

I made a deal today
Not to throw it all away
And to rejoice in my life
I saw the light
But then it faded into night
Again the world seemed duller
And I lost sight of colour

I had a drink today
Much like any other day
I couldn't sink much lower
Obsessed by health
Again I doubt myself
My heart starts beating faster
And breathing gets much harder
The future ever darker

Now it's clear I've got the fear
And I think it's killing me
I don't think it's killing me
And fear is living with the fear
It's chilling me
Don't know if it's killing me

How can it be
That I feel so f*cking lonely
When I'm immersed in love?