Peach - Rant for Personal Guidance Lyrics

I feel like my conscious is draining
Feel like all my bones are breaking
Feel alone
Been grown
To whine and moan
Bout the things I couldn't change
I'm sorry if I left you with the pain
I
Gave up feeling love for my sanity
Gave up my happiness for charity
Losing myself to all of my demons
Am I floatin
Am I focused
Am I dreamin
You been
Tryna reach me
I'm long distance
Cuz you juss wanna play your lil games
And how can I be sane when I find out I'm hanging with all the fakes
F*ck You
I called you brother
I called you son
You left me dead in the woods
You were Judas in the sun
And now you talk about real friends
Well answer me this
Why the f*ck would I die for the homies when I know they'd never do the same
Said why the f*ck would I die for the homies when I know they'd never do the same
I still think about who I was
And who I been
When I was mortal
Basked in sin
When I had more than
One lone friend
I still find myself thinking bout us and what we had
And now I'm glad
That we didn't go as far as I had planned
Cuz that was juvenile nonsense
I've been healin myself these past couple months
A couple bucks
All I had last week
No f*cks
I had to give from me
I've been tryna chill
And get some sleep
My headaches feel a lil more weak
My peers don't see me as a chump
She called me today to say wassup
And I feel loved
So I would still die for the homies even if they'd never do the same
Said I would still die for the motherf*ckin homies even if they'd never do the same
Cause it's insane
To think I'm really alone
Since I was born
They've been there for long
I'm here by the phone
I'll pick up when you're ready
Just hold up your hand real steady
I feel it in my bones
Destiny foretold
All y'all niggas keep on hatin on me and we gon see that
They gon blow me when I'm gone