ruminating Video (MV)

I long for a version of myself
I made from pixie dust in my youth
She doesn't have a blacklight in her mind
Trying to uncover hidden truth

Supposedly existence doesn't mean suffering

Sometimes I get a bit overwhelmed
I wouldn't mind if my brain stopped somehow
I just sit here ruminating (sit here ruminating)
Who am I to say I'm lost,
When I never even felt found?
I just sit here ruminating
I just sit here ruminating

Cry golden tears that always buy me time
But they won't keep me from the afterlife
If only I could shed my skin again
Then I wouldn't have to play pretend

Sometimes I get a bit overwhelmed
I wouldn't mind if my brain stopped somehow
I just sit here ruminating
Who am I to say I'm lost,
When I never even felt found?
I just sit here ruminating
I just sit here ruminating

Supposedly existence doesn't mean suffering
Supposedly this feeling doesn't mean everything

Sometimes I get a bit overwhelmed
I wouldn't mind if my brain stopped somehow
I just sit here ruminating (sit here ruminating)
Who am I to say I'm lost,
When I never even felt found?
I just sit here ruminating
I just sit here ruminating

I just sit here ruminating