Polarity2001 - what did i miss Lyrics

Let me paint a picture
When I was young, everything it had a shiny shimmer
But now I'm older, so it's colder, and the light is dimmer
But memories keep me warm when I can find a printer
I'll print off pictures of the time my momma made us dinner
And we would take it to my room and watch a scary thriller
You really made me feel like we were meant to be together
But then you used me like a tool, and chose to leave forever
So now I gotta press delete, and try to be at peace forever
A cheatin' Cinderella
Let's take it back to school, 'cause I'm a classy type of fella
In the back just drawin' pictures of a massive stack of cheddar
And Jack is crackin' jokes to the teacher, it was treasure
When I think about the times, it gives me heaps amount of pleasure
But now I'm learnin' how to keep on beat between a measure
Applyin' pressure
A diamond soon to be, I'm makin' effort
Designed to leave this earth, with a purpose
Writin' letters, climbin' headers
And yea I'm doin' better
But that you'll never know, because I never chose to show
How much you hold my rope
And now I do these shows, just to cope
They give me reason when my mental freezin'
I'm stuck like glue on the thought of you, it keeps me cheesin'
Every now and then I send you texts, an open wound you keep me bleedin'
I'm beggin', pleadin', let me go I'll try to find a home
But even then I won't be whole
(hey ****** it's your mom. I was just calling to see how you were doing. Please call me back, I haven't talked to you in a while. I would really like to talk to you. I love you son. Bye bye)
(hey mom I'm- I know it's been a while since we talked, I'm sorry. I've been pretty busy, but... I know you're probably sleeping right now, just give me a call back when you can. I love you)
Hard to remember what you look like these days
(It's hard)
Flippin' pages
An empty face won't serve as medication
Done kept ya waitin', I suppose we on our destination
Used to not float in water
Now I control the wavelengths
Thought I was golden hearted, but I left you heartless
My hypnosis stronger than my promise
You hooked on my phonics like a ghost to keepin' houses haunted
Meanwhile I keep it unresponsive
Alone attempt to prosper
This planet's got more left behind, than there is to grow
In the past like rappin' slow, baggy clothes
Take me back to those memories
Better known my antidote
Some can't be wrote, some cramp the dome
Take some for granted like family homes
We was cookin' on granny's stove
It's hard to think
Some alive who still apply, but they out the scene
Some in the ground, with a quiet crowd
They in our minds with no room to speak
Overlooked identities, like aunties at an old Christmas Eve
Life declines, could be tomorrow before we become an old memory
Caught me slippin', day dreamin', I be reminiscing
Props to the brain for never missin', thoughts be hittin' different
Lots to mention, and my life just getting started so I watch and listen
Observe while I got top conditions
Stop the mission just to sniff a rose
Aromas potent when we separated, posted up at different homes
Shit make me wanna finish gold in the olympics, probably skiing snow
Achieve this dream before we free the soul