But God... Video (MV)

This is really hard
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
The journey's really far
But God
Everything is wrong
Everything is wrong
But God
The journey's really far
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
This is really hard
But God

Pretty crazy isn't it
Made a change now the body needs some finishing
Chisel all the blemishes that make it undistinguished
'Til the day I die will I reach my final mission
Took a chance for a life full of dark days
But you think you worship only on a Sunday
Trust me when I tell the truth is sweeter than a sundae
Getting tired of Christians who minimize what the Son gave
Save that for another beat
But for now I'd rather get a nosebleed
Go on and just punch me make it deadly
Rather be unconscious than be living in my heresy
Wait and see
Sweet release
I'll speak my piece
And live in peace
Not at my peak
Can't even speak
My life is so weak
I'm hearing them teach
But I'm falling too deep
Falling so deeply it feels like I'm dreaming
I know that it's something that should've been stopping
But nothing prepared me for days of this feeling
Can someone please give me a lifeline from suffering
Breathing this toxin I wear it like fox skin and
Now I'm talking 'bout this problem
Happens often
Workaholic leading flocks of those who lost their way
And now are boxed and buried in their spirit coffin
You don't really think
There's a perfect me
Bet you couldn't see
I'm just tryna be
Something that can take on all this time I've put off
Try to turn the switch on then I turn it back off
Clap on clap off
On and off
On and off
Who you think I'm going off on

This is really hard
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
The journey's really far
But God
Everything is wrong
Everything is wrong
But God
The journey's really far
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
This is really hard
But God
This is really hard
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
The journey's really far
But God
Everything is wrong
Everything is wrong
But God
The journey's really far
But God
My life will fall apart
But God
This is really hard
But God

Wonder why I'm talking with a bitter condemnation
Well I'll tell you that I'm sick of all the petty indecision
'Cause my body's under pressure from the devil's blurry visions
And I'm tryna listen for the trumpets sounding in the distance
Bet you couldn't comprehend the moment that I came up in this
Well I didn't see this coming no not even for a second
But I guess I gotta keep on going 'cause the journey doesn't end
Until the carriages from the narratives
Bring the marriage for the people who are standing in their private satisfaction
But the little do they know they only start a chain reaction
Where the pretty looking Christians are just stuck up in their judgment
All have gone astray and far you missed your mark
Only thing I never thought
That life could get this hard
Sorry I forgot
But I remember God