Legacy Video (MV)

Yeah
Mom and dad broke up in 95
Just me and my sister trynna survive
Grandparents took us in daddy on drugs
Mama in the army she ain't really know us
They say it take a village just to raise kids
That's why I consider all my cousins my siblings
Thats why we remain close through the hoopla
When papa got locked man we had to lock arms
Know it's hard to see any brighter days
When ppl in ya past know you as a renegade
When you wanna do but right but you just so afraid
You see the good die young it stays in ya brain
All them late nights that I kept my girl up
All them club nights with them thugs guns tucked
All them times that I was down f*cked up
God still held me down yeah I lucked up
Lost a few good friends I could never get back
Whether loss or life man it hurts to see that
They say you can't feel the pain thru spades of champagne
But when it pours it rains
Look
Them hot girls got kids now that's cruel summer
Or they twerking live for a cool hunnid
Likes on the gram for thirst hunters
And flex fronters
I'm truly tired of it
Look
Teaching my daughters young that they need self respect
Dont rely on no nigga to get ya next check
Show Em how to be a boss never work for free
If someone wants it bad enough they'll pay the fee
Teaching my son how to open doors
Showing him young not to treat queens like they whores
Nowadays you gotta teach these boys that no is no
It's crazy in this culture that I have to say so
It's unfortunate
Common sense ain't as common as we think it is
Doing everything I can just to raise my kids
So when I die they'll never have to want for shit
Look
I just want to leave behind a legacy
Not just for them but for my whole family
Not ready for the day the Lord says follow me
But when He does I just hope that you all remember me
Yeah
Look, I'm not ok
So many emotions it's just hard to say
At this point in time I need a holiday
Drowning myself in Hennessy for temporary escape
Feel like I let you down even though I didn't
Hearing your heart miles away beating 1000 times a minute
Wish there was more time involved for things to be forgiven
But how can you forgive when the devil got cruel intentions
Jotting these thoughts down isn't doing justice
Neither is drinking but its solace so f*ck it
When the ones you love turn out to be the darkest
When you're feeling alone I swear that's the hardest
My heart bleeds
This shit runs deep
I need cc's of love in my iv
There ain't no relief
Only what if's
And tears falling like autumn leaves while you in disbelief
Too many people telling me I need to be strong
But how with so many victims it's hard to carry on
Out of love we tend to overlook the wrongs
Y'all prob hear this and think this just another song
Still haven't even processed
Red eyed and drunk I haven't even caught rest
They say as long as you live dog your still blessed
But how can God overlook this violence
I know I shouldn't question God
But it's hard when you see the world playing against the odds
This world is nasty and wicked not to be too explicit
But it be the ones closest to you that be so afflicted
I'm talking about sickness how is abuse so addictive
How can we as a country sit here and be complicit
Tears run like a marathon reflecting on Nipsey
It be the ones you love ready to do you dirty
How come I gotta learn the truth at the age of thirty
How come it had to be you dam I'm really hurting
Won't be no condolences when you pass
I'm trying to handle with class and not go beat ya ass
Juggling and contemplating no it's more like I'm debating
But I can't be the one my kids are at home waiting
For our baby girls we gotta do more
I solemnly swear from here to be an advocate for sure