Apologies Video (MV)

I may have to lie to you and I apologize
If I say I'm fine I'm actually verge of suicide
Sometimes I just like to think that I am not alive
Take my mind off of tonight, late night wanna take a drive

These thoughts keep me up at night
I'm feeling like it's homicide
I have had you on my mind
I just wanna make things right
I have seen you all the time
And I act like that I'm just fine
Jesus take me when I die
If you take my alibi
I can't say this audibly
But you are my anomaly
Girl you are so odd to me
I mean the best way possibly
The real meaning of prodigy
Starts with your name honestly
I can't conceal my love
Now I need to leave my boxing glove

I may have to lie to you and I apologize
If I say I'm fine I'm actually verge of suicide
Sometimes I just like to think that I am not alive
Take my mind off of tonight, late night wanna take a drive

I will always take you out
But I will always go throughout
All this pain I'm just a drought
I doubt that I'll live without
You, I cannot stop
You will always be the top
Of all my priorities
I can't leave you morally
I don't give myself the credit
You are my only merit
I just don't know how I'll exit
My life I don't care who says it
I'm not better than I was
And I will not know why because
I don't ever reach too high
I don't wanna f*cking die

I take time out of my day
And then I go the other way
I will never leave today
Nor tomorrow I'll have to stay
I take time out of my day
And then I go the other way
I will never leave today
Nor tomorrow I'll have to stay

I may have to lie to you and I apologize
If I say I'm fine I'm actually verge of suicide
Sometimes I just like to think that I am not alive
Take my mind off of tonight, late night wanna take a drive

I take time out of my day
And then I go the other way
I will never leave today
Nor tomorrow I'll have to stay
I take time out of my day
And then I go the other way
I will never leave today
Nor tomorrow I'll have to stay

I'm a human mystery
But please do not confuse me
For a broken hearted soul
I still take complete control
Now just put away the knife
A failed design to be dead inside
I just forget how to love
Now I will unload my gun
But this time I just might
Turn away from the light
And then move into the night
Tonight I'm not quite upright
Uptight about some delights
Maybe it's time for me to ignite
I'm self-conscious about my feels
Maybe it's time I leave the fields

I take time out of my day
And then I go the other way
I will never leave today
Nor tomorrow I'll have to stay