I try to find a reason
A reason to be alone
So I can tear myself down
Its the only thing I know
The subtle way that I want to be when I know deep down inside
Another day added on to the decades of self loathing I hide
Are you listening? To anything I say?
In so deep inside my mind
I sit here and fade away
Watch me fade away
There comes a time-when I feel free
Where days and weeks go by
But knowing any moment
The need to feel comes alive
Deep down inside I can feel the fear rise up and burry me alive
Yet the thrill that I hate inside over powers me in my life
No I don't want to be.....no I don't want to be.....no I don't wanna be just like YOU!!
No I don't want to be just like you.....buried deep in pain
No I don't want to be just like you
I watch myself fade away
I fade away