Project X - Stuck in My Ways Lyrics

Got a lot on my mind
Prayin to the sky can you hear me
I don't really fit in anyways
As a kid used to get picked on
For my looks for my weight
For the way I was raised
Got me thinking I'm a mistake
As I grew older I had to grow up fast
Had to cover up my wounds
Thinking about how my story f*cking ends
And it felt so soon
But I had to push through
Life got so hard
At a young age
I was broken n scarred
Had to check my cards
Had to throw up my guard
Fakes around that
The past revealed
I believed their lies
Let them walk on me
And I always let em win

It made me wanna restart
As different person
Had me feeling
Like was no other option
Had me wanting to end it
All this pain I was in
I just wanted it to end
I didn't care how

Or who I'd hurt
Back against the wall
I just wanted some old friends
But it felt like everyone was against me
Even my own family
I had to deal with pain n the agony
To find what was held deep inside of me
Now I'm struggling again
Past comes around full circle
When the clock hits at 12
When the days end
I'm all alone in my bed
Thinking about the last breath I take
Will I be scared
Or relieved that its all done
I can finally f*cking rest
Put my head to sleep
These thoughts all leave
It's a gift that I'll receive
And it feels so lonely
In this cold f*cking world we living in

Had to take some time to myself
I had to think about the cards
I was dealt
I tried so hard to move from past
And everything I've done
Had no clue what was left for me
Yeah

Sick of always hurting
And people always turning
Can't help but feel alone
Spend most my days inside
Trying to put a smile on my face
But I can't so I'm stuck in my ways
Yeah I'm stuck in my ways