I don't wanna f*cking try
I just wanna f*cking cry
Do I wanna be alive
Only thoughts of suicide
I don't wanna f*cking try
I just wanna f*cking cry
Do I wanna be alive
Only thoughts of suicide
Only dark thoughts remain
Fantasizing of the day
When I can't take it and put a bullet in my f*cking brain
I been tryna breath
Tryna be at ease
Cause I know that one day I'll fade away and I'll be at peace
I don't wanna die
I'm sick of all the lies
The only thing that remains is heavy thoughts of suicide
Take another pill
Do it for the thrill
Hoping that I close my eyes and never have to write my will
Hush, you hear that? The demons keep on talking
Tell me I should self destruct and never plan on stopping
I hate myself I isolate so I don't kill the vibe
Upping on all of my medications that I am prescribed
People ask me if I'm fine
They don't know what's on my mind
They can't read between the lines
Cuz that's the part I always hide
I just wanna run away
I just wanna find my place
I wanna find a better way
I wanna see a better day
I don't wanna f*cking try
I just wanna f*cking cry
Do I wanna be alive
Only thoughts of suicide
I don't wanna f*cking try
I just wanna f*cking cry
Do I wanna be alive
Only thoughts of suicide