Am I the man that you envisioned
Should your response in any way sway my decision
I'm now more conscious of the way that I am living
What I put in is reflected by what I'm given
Positive duplication deposited new relations
Withdrew the old then drew from my motivation
My voice of reason my season of separation
Abomination of demons demanding my expectations
To crumble, no mumble
I stay humble through troubles
Far from the bubble
The number one seed ready to plant then harvest
The hardest, challenge was always to balance
The muse of amusement with all of my musical talents
I'm ready and deadly with all of this info that I've obtained
I tend to give compliments
Others tend to complain
Such disdain shown to a man who mandated a change
In the only life he owned, his own, let me explain
See I rapped for years, shed some tears, dreamt of getting on
But that wasn't the reason why I was penning these songs
All along I was journeying to a light that was shining
A place that I couldn't get to my rhyming, aligning
Myself with others who have like minded goals
And whose willing to travel with me down all these dark roads
Engine revving, scheduled to leave around seven
Refusing to choose known Hells over unknown Heavens
Eleven disciples, I'm in constant search for the twelfth
Realizing that asking for help is good for my health
And as for my wealth
I wanna pass it down for years
So let me do what I know is best and miss me while I'm here, yeah
You should grieve for the present
Lifelong tears you should weep for my essence
Grown man I ain't freeze adolescence
You can preach to the choir, but can you preach to the reverend
The ones that hurt you the most are within arms reach
I promise I'll be quick this ain't no long speech
Ashes to ashes, fogs are crystal clear
Can't stab me while I'm gone so just miss me while I'm here
Train of thought on a crash course with other locomotives
Motives beyond loco seem hopeless
Tryna retrieve focus
So I float to where hope is loyally being quoted
Protected from anything that's corrosive
Approaching a destination that's final
Finding time to find the lines that I place on the vinyl
Chills race on the spinal
In spite of me being prideful my mind leaps off the Eiffel
I know preventing that spiral is vital to my survival
Not ready for closed curtains I show sternness
Was at the bottom of defeat, look at my sole purpose
No purchase I paid the price for this lifestyle
Shoulda waited until they marked the price down cause right now
They treat me like I don't know better
And talk good, but never show effort
That's why I'm so separate
Just give me my flowers while I can still smell em
You should spread the love while you can still tell em
You should grieve for the present
Lifelong tears you should weep for my essence
Grown man I ain't freeze adolescence
You can preach to the choir, but can you preach to the reverend
The ones that hurt you the most are within arms reach
I promise I'll be quick this ain't no long speech
Ashes to ashes, fogs are crystal clear
Can't stab me while I'm gone so just miss me while I'm here