Redrum - Sure I Want To Die Lyrics

[Verse 1:]
I'm Sittin Up In My Room And I'm Feelin Hella Lost
I'm Slowly Rockin In My Chair I'm Thinking With The Lights Off
Depression's All Up In My Mind And It's Kickin My Ass
There's Broken Glass Up My Hand I'm Hella Trippin Off The Past
I'm Thinking I Don't Wanna Listen I Don't Wanna Just Die
I Hold The Glass Up To My Wrist I'm Thinking Yeah It's Worth A Try
These Voices All Up In My Head Tellin Me Hit The Main Vein
The Dragon's All Up In My Mind Tellin Me He's Gonna Block The Pain
But I Ain't Trippin Off The Pain I Wouldn't Mind If I Suffer
I Give My Wrist A Little Slit It's Bleeding Like A Motherf*cker
I'm Starring All Up At My Wound While the Blood Starts To Drip
I Place The Glass In My Other Hand I Slit My Other F*ckin Wrist
Now My Adrenaline Is Pumping And My Heart Starts To Race
My Body's Starting To Go Numb It's Going Out On A Steady Pace
I Slit My Wrist A Few More Times Before My Power Was Drained
There's So Much Blood Up On The Floor I think I Hit The Main Vein

[Chorus:]
I'm Pretty Sure I Want To Die Or Is It Just My Imagination
I'm Always Thinking Suicide Plus My Demons Down There Waitin
I'm Starring All Up At My Wrists I Might Just Give It A Shot
I'm Digging Deep Into My Flesh And There Ain't No Second Thought
But Now I'm Feeling Hella Sick And Now I'm starting To Wonder
Am I Really Going To Die And Will The Devil Take Me Under?
It's Like I've Seen This All Before But What The F*ck Does It Mean
I'm Always Dying The Same Way Every Time Up In My Dream

[Verse 2:]
Now My Blood Is Rushing Down As If I Just Sprung A Leak
There's No More Strength Up In My Body I'm Feeling Hella F*ckin Weak
My Head Is Feelin Hella F*ckin Light I Think I Better Lie Down
I Try To Lie Up On My Bed I Fell Forward To The F*ckin Ground
But Now My Eyes Would Start To Shutter Now They're Slowly Rolling Back
I Look For Death Tryin To Focus But Now I'm On The Right Track
At That Exact Point Of Time I Saw Nothin But Black
These Voices Still Up In My Head Cause I Could Tell By The Way They Laugh
And There's A Puncture In My Arm I Felt It Break Through The Skin
I Open My Eyes To Flashing Lights And Sirens From An Ambulance
I Got This IV In My Arm And These Tubes In My Nose
Fellin Hella Pissed Inside Cause It Was My Turn To Go
Now They're Doing Everything They Can To Keep Me Alive
And I Fight It From The Inside Out To Let Go And Die
The Doctor's Squeezing Out My Wrists And Doing Exactly What It Seems
I'm Praying They Won't Stop The Bleeding And My Wrists Will F*ckin Bleed

[Chorus]

[Verse 3:]
Now I'm Laying In The Hospital They Finally Stopped The Bleeding
Ain't That Just My F*ckin Luck They Making Me Continue Bleeding
I Got Both My Wrists Wrapped And My Situation's Critical
And If I Die Today To Me, Yo, That Would Be A Miracle
But Then I Finally Blink And Now I'm Back In My Room
I'm Praying If I Slit My Wrists I'm Hoping That I'll Die Soon
Cause I Don't Wanna Be Half Dead Laying In The Gurney Naked
Hella People All Around Me Thinking That I'm Gonna Make It
I Wanna Go Out By Myself Cause I Know I'm Gonna Suffer
I Won't Scream Like A Bitch But Tear Up Like A Mutherf*cker
And Everytime I Cut My Wrists I'll Probably Dwell On The Past
My Memories Runnin Through My Head Good Is Mixed With The Bad
Now Do I Wanna Cut Myself With Death There's Always A Maybe
[? ] And Have Somebody Save Me
I'm Thinking I Don't Wanna Listen I Don't Wanna Just Die
I Hold The Glass Up To My Wrist I'm Thinking Yeah It's Worth A Try

[Chorus x2]