Snow Angel Album Lyrics by Renee Rapp

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Talk Too Much

Tasted the blood in my mouth
And left you there to bleed out
It didn't feel like a dream
Woke up and you looked so cute
Don't think I could love you more
So what the hell does it all mean?

I'm takin' everything I see as a sign and
I know it's crazy
But what if it's right

I'm here again
Talking myself out of
My own happiness
I'll make it up 'til I quit
I wonder if we should just sit here in silence 'cause

Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much

If I see a blue car today
We'll probably have to break up
So I close my eyes while I drive
And if it rains, then it rains
And we'll be over by May
That's just the deal that I made
In my head

I'm taking everything I see as a sign and
I know it's crazy
But what if it's right

I'm here again
Talkin' myself out of
My own happiness
I'll make it up 'til I quit
I wonder if we should just sit here in silence 'cause

Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much

Okay, having said all that
Do you still wanna be with me? (Do you still wanna be with me?)
'Cause, like, I wanna be with you
Like, like, maybe even forever (forever)
Holy shit, okay, maybe not forever (forever)
I mean, like, I'm, I'm not saying not forever
I, I actually have no idea what I'm saying (I have no idea)
Are you mad at me?
'Cause, 'cause it's cool if you are
Right? Like, I don't care
But like, if, if you are then I'm gonna resent you (I don't care)
Okay? I'll forgive you but (I'm gonna resent you)
I'm just wondering, like, okay, like, is this a sign? (I'll forgive you)
Do I actually hate you? (I'm taking everything I see as a sign)
I, I just wanna be honest, right? (I know it's crazy)
Like, do you still love me? (But what if it's right?)

I'm here again
Talking myself out of
My own happiness
I'll make it up 'til I quit
I wonder if we should just sit here in silence 'cause
Ooh
Ah, just shut the f*ck up!

Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much
Ooh, I think I talk too much

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I Hate Boston

I was just a tourist
You got to be a big hometown hero
Made you feel important
Still stuck in your high school yearbook

Why'd we have to cover so much ground?
You showed me around
As far as I'm concerned they should just burn
The whole city down

How'd you make me hate Boston?
It's not its fault that you don't love me
Had its charm, but it lost it
It's not its fault just a casualty
And casual's the way you chose to leave

Hid me in your basement
God forbid, you're not the centre of attention
Family confrontation
Probably static 'cause my name was mentioned

I heard your father's sleepin' on the couch
You sure got around
As far as I'm concerned they should just burn
The whole city down

How'd you make me hate Boston?
It's not its fault that you don't love me
Had its charm, but it lost it
It's not its fault just a casualty
How'd you make me hate Boston?
The whole thing is haunted
How do you sleep?
Knowing you held me hostage
You must be exhausted
Don't you miss me?

And casual's the way you chose to leave
And you're all over every single street

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Poison Poison

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la

You get on my nerves
You're so f*cking annoying, you could poison poison
You're the worst person on earth
Forgiving you is pointless, you could poison poison, baby girl

It didn't have to be like this
I didn't wanna have to use the knife behind your back
To go and flip the script (ah-ah-ah)
You almost fot away with it
You got a little bit ahead of me
But unlucky for you, I am that bitch (ah-ah-ah)

You get on my nerves
You're so f*cking annoying, you could poison poison
You're the worst person on earth
Forgiving you is pointless, you could poison poison, baby girl

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la

You got another suit to lick
Anything it takes to weigh enough
To bring me down to anybody listening (You know that shit)
And yes, I am a feminist
But, bitch, you're makin' it hard for me to always be supporting all women
(I hate that bitch)

You get on my nerves
You're so f*cking annoying, you could poison poison
You're the worst person on earth
Forgiving you is pointless, you could poison poison, baby girl

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la

This might be out of pocket
But I might just have to drop it
So go, run, check your inboxes
You incriminated our pulses

Mm, you get on my nerves
You're so f*cking annoying, you could poison poison
You're the worst person on earth
Forgiving you is pointless, you could poison poison, baby girl

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la
You could poison poison

You're the worst bitch on the earth
I hate you and your guts
I think you should shut the f*ck up and die
You could get on my nerves
F*ck you, you dumb bitch
F*ck you, f*ck you, f*ck you
Gorg?

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Gemini Moon

Never know who you're gonna get
We're in love or we never met
Sour lemons or cinnamon
Every day, I'm different
I talk shit then I bite my tongue
Moving in, then I'm on the run
I exist on a pendulum
Swingin' high or swingin' low

You're the driver, I'm the passenger (ah-ah)
You're so f*cking perfect, how come I'm not feeling more?
Hope this doesn't make you insecure (ah-ah)
But yesterday was heaven, now I'm bored

I bet you're sick of it
Believe me, so am I
Always the problem kid, I could never pick a side (ah-ah)
I bet you're sick of it (ah-ah), I could blame the Gemini moon
But really, I should just be better to you

Memorizing every smile line
Compatibility down to the signs
Breaking beds just to buy some time
To avoid myself (mm)

You're the driver, I'm the passenger (ah-ah)
You're so f*cking perfect, how come I'm not feeling more?
Hope this doesn't make you insecure (ah-ah)
But yesterday was heaven, now I'm bored

I bet you're sick of it
Believe me, so am I
Always the problem kid, I could never pick a side
I bet you're sick of it (ah-ah), I could blame the Gemini moon
But really, I should just be better to you
Mm, but really, I should just be better to you

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Snow Angel

First to arrive, last to leave
What's misery without company?
It's hard to laugh when it's hard to breathe
It's white outside but red underneath

Feel the tip of my nose
It's burning but it's ice cold

I'll make it through the winter if it kills me
I can make it faster if I hurry
I'll angel in the snow until I'm worthy
But if it kills me I tried
If it kills me

Smiles hide what secrets keep
Can't tell a lie if you never speak
Look in the mirror, she looks like me
But half alive and twice as weak

Feel the tip of my nose
It's burning but it's ice cold

I'll make it through the winter if it kills me
I can make it faster if I hurry
I'll angel in the snow until I'm worthy
But if it kills me I tried
If it kills me

I tried so hard
I came so far
I met a boy
He broke my heart
I blame him 'cause
It's easier
But I still look
For him in her
The seasons change
Addiction's strange
I loved back then
What I hate today

I wish I went
A different way
But if I went back
I would do the same

I'll make it through the winter if it
But why does it go slower when I?
I'll angel in the snow until I'm worthy
If it kills me I tried
If it kills me I

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So What Now

If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry, cry

I found out from a friend of a friend that you're here again
What gives you the right to come back to the city that I live in?
Yeah, I know that you grew up here and I know that your family's here
But I found out from a friend of a friend that you're here again

So what now?
Should we talk
If we run in to each other on the streets
Should I keep walkin'?
So what now?
Do you tell your friends
That things ended well?
That I'm over-dramatic, it was chill
Do you lie and say you don't wanna see me again
'Cause I do it too
Both of us like to pretend
So we feel like we're cool
So what now?

If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry, cry

I'm like what the hell, why the hell didn't you call me yet?
I know I cuss you out, that's my mouth
But you should be banging on my doorbell
Yes, I said I hated you and those little dimples too
Still, I'm like what the hell, why the hell didn't you call me yet?

So what now?
Should we talk
If we run in to each other on the streets
Should I keep walkin'?
So what now?
Do you tell your friends
That things ended well?
That I'm over-dramatic, it was chill
Do you lie and say you don't wanna see me again
'Cause I do it too
Both of us like to pretend
So we feel like we're cool
You don't wanna see me again
'Cause I do it too
Both of us like to pretend
So we feel like we're cool

So what now?
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
So what now?
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
If I'm missing calls I'm gonna cry
You dumb crusty ass bitch but I think I love you
Welcome back to California
I love you
You're so small I could flick you, (?)
I wish I could again
I might kiss you but I also might fight you
If I missed your call I'm gonna cry
If I missed your call I'm gonna cry

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The Wedding Song

There's an old song I wrote for you
It was everything you'd want it to be
Your melody lifts, the minor chord falls
It was timeless like you and me
And when the chorus hit it felt like flyin'
It would've played at every wedding night, and
It went like

You were my one, you set my world on fire
I know there's Heaven but we must be higher
I'm gonna love you 'til my heart retires
Forever we'll last
I think it went something like that

There's an old song I wrote for you
I would play it for all of our friends
It'd make 'em all dance, it'd make 'em all cry
When it's over they said, "Play it again"
I would have sang it to you soft and sweet
You'd want it every anniversary
And it went like

You were my one, you set my world on fire
I know there's Heaven but we must be higher (We must be higher)
I'm gonna love you 'til my heart retires
Forever we'll last
I think it went something like that

Why'd you have to mess it all up?
Why'd you have to burn it all down?
The words were so perfect
The world should've heard it
I sang every line out loud
Why'd you have to mess it all up?
Why'd you have to burn it all down?
Should've played on the radio
Day after day
'Til they say that it's all played out
And it went like

You were my one, you set my world on fire
I know there's Heaven but we must be higher
I'm gonna love you 'til my heart retires
Forever we'll last
I think it went something like that

Forever we'll last
I think it went something like that

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Pretty Girls

You say that I'm your favorite
With your hand between my thighs
Tell me if you were gonna
That I would be the one you tried
So you inch a little closer
Say your boyfriend, he wouldn't mind
You think that I'd be flattered
It's pathetic 'cause you're right

In the PM, all the pretty girls
They have a couple drinks, all the pretty girls
So now, they wanna kiss all the pretty girls
They got to have a taste of a pretty girl
In the AM, all the pretty girls
Act like it never happened in another world
Yeah, it's a blessing and it's a curse
So keep on pretending pretty girl

All the pretty girls

This conversation's classic (classic)
I can predict this shit, line by line
I like a straight jacket
But it feels like it's a little tight
Yeah, your boyfriend's cute
Oh, shit, yeah, he can come too
You'll be his in the morning anyway

In the PM, all the pretty girls
They have a couple drinks, all the pretty girls
So now, they wanna kiss all the pretty girls
They got to have a taste of a pretty girl
In the AM, all the pretty girls
Act like it never happened in another world
Yeah, it's a blessing and it's a curse
So keep on pretending pretty girl (ah)

All the pretty girls (ah)
All the pretty girls (ah-ah)

It's a blessing and it's a curse
So keep on pretending, pretty girl
All the pretty girls (pretending, on pretending)
(Yeah, that bitch is gay)

On pretending, pretty girl
Keep on pretending, pretty girl
Keep on pretending, pretty, pretty
Keep on pretending, pretty girl
All the pretty girls
On pretending, pretty girl
Like, like it never happened in another world
Keep, keep on pretending, pretty girl

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Tummy Hurts

Maybe I should try religion
'Cause Jesus you're hard to rely on
I never find you in the kitchen
Couldn't even pay rent for three months
Oh, I heard you, I get it, you're broke
But oh, you always had money to smoke down

Now my tummy hurts, he's in love with her
But for what it's worth
They'd make beautiful babies
And raise 'em up to be a couple of
F*cking monsters, like their mother and their father
Eventually, 2043
Someone's gonna hurt their little girl like their daddy hurt me

I just want some recognition for having good tits and a big heart
I can't believe I let you hit in
In hindsight, that might be the worst part
Oh, I taught you everything you know
But oh, I guess boys, they come and they go

Now my tummy hurts, he's in love with her
But for what it's worth
They'd make beautiful babies
And raise 'em up to be a couple of
F*cking monsters, like their mother and their father
Eventually, 2043
Someone's gonna hurt their little girl like their daddy hurt me

Mmm, like their daddy hurt me-e-e-e-e-e-e-e, e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e
Like their daddy hurt me-e-e-e-e-e-e-e, e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e
Like their daddy hurt me-e-e-e-e-e-e-e, e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e
Like their daddy hurt me-e-e-e-e-e-e-e, e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e

Now my tummy hurts, he's in love with her
But for what it's worth
He's a problem now
Baby, you should stay with him
'Cause she made with him a couple monsters
Like their mother and their father
Yeah, eventually, 2043
Someone's gonna hurt your little girl like you hurt me

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I Wish

I was ten years old when I realized
Some goodbyes are forever
So what's that mean for you and I?
I thought we'd always be together

How can a person who taught me to breathe
Take the last breath right in front of me?
I know too much now

I wish I could still see the world through those eyes
I still see the colors, they're not as clear or as bright
Oh, the older we get, the colors they faint
Your hair turns to grey but the blue's here to stay
So I wish, I wish

I remember seeing my dad cry
For the first time, we were downstairs
Talkin' 'bout how his dad died
And how he wished he could've been there

He said "How could a person who taught me to breathe
Take the last breath right in front of me?"
I know too much now

I wish I could still see the world through those eyes
I still see the colors, they're not as clear or as bright
Oh, the older we get, the colors they change
Your hair turns to grey but the blue stays the same
I wish, I wish

Stay a little longer
I'm not ready for you to go
It hasn't even happened
But I have been mourning since ten years old
Stay a little longer

I wish I could still see the world through those eyes
I still see the colors, they're not as clear or as bright
Oh, the older we get, the colors they change
Your hair turns to grey but the blue's here to stay
So I wish, I wish

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Willow

Looks like you're still gettin' yours still
(?) grown
I know it's hard to slow down when
There's still more to go
Maybe it's just how you treat it
Not something you know
Only so much you can explain over the phone

So I'm coming to you
Can I get your permission to lay underneath ya
Not a special occasion, I just had a feelin'
Wanna ask how you doin'
I mean it, I mean it

Willow
Don't cry, don't cry, Willow
Don't cry, Willow
Willow
Don't cry, don't you
Willow
Don't cry, don't cry, Willow
I will cry, Willow
Willow
I'll cry for you

Don't have to use your own tears
Just to grow your own roots
Just keep your passion for flowers
And it'll patch up your youth
And there's a whole lot of rain
But there's a hole in the roof
That makes it easy to swim in the bad attitude

So I'm coming to you
Can I get your permission to lay underneath ya
Not a special occasion, I just had a feelin'
Wanna ask how you doin'
I mean it, I mean it, oh

Willow
Don't cry, don't cry, Willow
Don't cry, Willow
Willow
Don't cry, don't you
Willow
Don't cry, don't cry, Willow
I will cry, Willow
Willow
I'll cry for you

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23

It's my Jordan year
And I thought this shit would look good on me
But I just feel weird
And I still can't fly
Thought I'd be ahead, but I'm down by five
I'm all fight or flight
And I still can't fly

Everything looks good on paper
Displayed on the shelf
And nobody thinks they should save her
But she's doin' well
Three hundred sixty-five days later, I still haven't learned to calm down
But I blow candles out
My wish should be different by now

But tomorrow I turn twenty-three
And it feels like everyone hates me
So, how old do you have to be
To live so young and careless?
My wish is that I cared less
At twenty-three

The bags on my eyes
We'll they're not designer, but they're overpriced
I paid for with cryin' (cry, cry, cryin')
And every ex hits my phone
Like, "Happy birthday, are you alone?"
You tried to ruin twenty-two
So don't pretend that now we're cool

Everything looks good on paper
Displayed on the shelf
And nobody thinks they should save her
But she's doin' well
Three hundred sixty-five days later, I still haven't learned to calm down
But I blow candles out
My wish should be different by now

But tomorrow I turn twenty-three
And it feels like everyone hates me
So, how old do you have to be
To live so young and careless?
My wish is that I cared less
At twenty-three

It's my Jordan year
We'll they're not designer, but they're
Tomorrow I turn twenty-three
Everyone hates me
Happy birthday, happy birthday

I hope that I'll see twenty-four
I hope I'll understand me more
I hope my bed is (?)
I hope that I can care less, but I'm afraid to care less