4th Wall Album Lyrics by Ruel

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GO ON WITHOUT ME

Yeah bro, they said some f*cked up shit

I can't break, get rid of this part of me, yeah
All the shit that I've done
Yeah, it shouldn't be hard to leave
Out of my excuses
All this overthinking is wearing you down
Yeah, I can see it, oh-whoa

You need someone else
Someone you can rely on
I'll just let you down, yeah-yeah
You need something else
A shoulder that you can cry on
I'll just let you down

So go on without me
So go on without me, yeah

Whatever I say to you, please, don't take me back (please, don't take me back)
I can tell you I've changed but that doesn't change the fact
That I'm out of chances
Sorry, it's confusing
Yeah, I wish I knew what I was doing, oh-whoa

You need someone else
Someone you can rely on
I'll just let you down, oh-whoa
You need something else
A shoulder that you can cry on
I'll just let you down

If I could give you the world
I would give you the world
Yeah, it's what you deserve
But go on without me
If I could give you the world
I would give you the world
Yeah, it's what you deserve
But go on without me

You need someone else
Someone you can rely on
I'll just let you down, oh-ooh
Yeah, you need something else
A shoulder that you can cry on
I'll just let you down

So go on without me, oh-whoa (please, don't take me back)
Go on without me, yeah (please, don't take me back)
Go on without me

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I DON'T WANNA BE LIKE YOU

(A slight chance of showers)
(And thunderstorms at midnight)

Your smile's like a dark cloud
Can't wait for the fallout
Big joke but the kids don't get it
Big words but it's not poetic
Lost touch tryna save me
No time for it lately
Big sigh but it's so dramatic

It's not like I don't care, don't understand
I'm not gonna get there holding your hand
Temperature is rising watch the sunset
Know I better say this before I forget

I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)

I'm trying to be patient
Decipher what you're saying
But I feel like I'm stuck inside of your imagination
Just like this conversation
It's never gonna end
Go- yourself and all of your friends

I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)

It's not like I don't care, don't understand
I'm not gonna get there holding your hand
Said I gotta stay and trust the process
Know I better say this before I forget

I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)
I don't wanna be like you (ooh)

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SITTING IN TRAFFIC

It's easy to want me while we are fallin'
All of the scariest parts are blocked out
Lost in a mansion, up in the canyon
Light from the sunset is blinding our doubts

Remember the way that you feel when it's only us, only us
It felt like forever but now we're just- up
Mm-hmm

Darling, don't hate me when you're not in love, oh-oh
Darling, don't break me when it's all too much, yeah
We were just laughin', sittin' in traffic
Said, we'd never let bad things happen to us
So please, don't ever hate me when we're not in love

I'll take an airplane back to the old days
Back when it felt like the sky was still real
And we were addicted to what was written in all of the stars
Now, we can't even feel

Remember the way that you feel when it's only us, ooh
It felt like forever but now we're just- up
Oh-ooh-oh

Darling, don't hate me when you're not in love, oh-oh
Darling, don't break me when it's all too much, yeah
We were just laughin', sittin' in traffic
Said, we'd never let bad things happen to us
So don't ever hate me when we're not in love, yeah

All of the good things turnin' to bad things
How will you feel when you're lookin' back?
And all of the memories will turn to resentment
And where will I be when you forget the past?
Well, all of the good things turnin' to bad things
Tell me what happens when it all ends
Oh, I gotta tell you, what I'm most afraid of
Is losin' you once and to lose you again

Darling, don't hate me when you're not in love, oh-oh
Darling, don't break me when it's all too much, oh-oh
We were just laughin', sittin' in traffic
Said, we'd never let bad things happen to us
So please, don't ever hate me when we're not in love, oh-oh
In love

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JAPANESE WHISKEY

We stayed up drinking the Japanese whiskey
That your father brought home from Tokyo
You said that I can't go home until it's empty
But my, my lips are dry
I don't like the taste but I like how it sounds
So I stayed there and wasted our time
I tried to act like a man but I felt like a child

Seems like the closer I hold you, the colder it feels
We only fall in love with things that ain't really real

I wanted to be what you wanted in me
But if I'm being honest I can't

You don't keep lists of your hits or your misses
But I carve my kisses in stonе
I keep my past behind glass
But you don't want to know

Seems like the closеr I hold you, the colder it feels
We only fall in love with things that ain't really real

I wanted to be what you wanted from me
But if I'm being honest I can't

[Instrumental Break]


Oh, I close my eyes and swallow your bitter words whole
I can't decide, if I like it or just can't let go
I close my eyes and swallow your bitter words whole
I can't decide, if I like it or just can't let go

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GROWING UP IS _____

Heard you moved out of town on the weekend
Understand, but I'm sad that you're leaving
Are you up making friends with the ceiling?
Yeah, I know the feeling
I wasn't trying to let you down
I was just working my shit out
I'm sorry I didn't know how much I led you on

Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
Question everything you thought
Split a pill, smoke a dart
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
Growin' up is strange, get too close, push away
Thinking you would do the same
New regrets, new mistakes
Growin' up is strange when the one who's to blame
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
Growing up is

Get emotional at two in the morning
It's a habit, know I shouldn't be callin'
Then you let me in, is that what you wanted?
Is this what we wanted?
Now you're back in town, no, I can't come around
Are we better without the what if's and doubts
Is this it?
Are we both too far gone to forget
And try again?

Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
Question everything you thought
Split a pill, smoke a dart
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
Growing up is strange, get too close, push away
Thinking you would do the same
New regrets, new mistakes
Growin' up is strange when the one who's to blame
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
Growin' up is

Wish that you were here (oh)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh (wish that you were, wish that you were here)

Growin' up is weird, sleep with friends, break a heart
Question everything you thought
Split a pill, smoke a dart
Growin' up is weird, fall in love for a year
And then I disappear, wish that you were here
Growin' up is strange, get too close, push away
Thinking you would do the same
New regrets, new mistakes
Growin' up is strange when the one who's to blame
Is lookin' at the mirror, wish that you were here
Growin' up is weird

Oh-oh, bet I'll just disappear
Oh, will I just disappear?
Wish that you were here
Growing up is

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SET YOURSELF ON FIRE

It's okay, okay to be a little bit lost
No one really knows what they want
Spin in circles, spin in circles, finish what you started
Everyone's a little bit nauseous
And everybody looks exhausted
Spin in circles, spin in circles

Got no other option on the surface
But tell yourself it's goin' great
On the inside, it's not workin' but you still can't look away

Chasin' that shine like it's fool's gold
Ruin our lives, never gets old
Runnin' for miles, but we're fast closed
Nothin' could last, yeah, better let go (better let go)
Don't tell me everything's gonna be alright
If the world decides, it could end tonight, tonight
Set yourself on fire

Yeah, I could tell you where it all goes
But I'd rather watch it explode
Open ended consequences
Runnin' out of-

Options on the surface
Tell yourself it's goin' great
On the inside, it's not workin'
But you still can't look away

Chasin' that shine like it's fool's gold
Ruin our lives, never gets old
Runnin' for miles, but we're fast closed
Nothin' could last, yeah, better let go (better let go)
Don't tell me everything's gonna be alright
If the world decides it could end tonight, tonight
Set yourself on fire, on fire, on fire
Set yourself on fire, on fire, on fire

Set yourself on fire, on fire, on fire
On fire, on fire, on fire

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LIE

Look in my direction
But I swear you look right through me
We used to fit so perfect
But I guess you just outgrew me
I plan my life around the promises
That we both made
The more it hurts, the more I yearn
My heart is surely swollen

And all you do is paint me blue
Remember we were golden
Maybe numb the pain before you break it, mm
'Cause I can hear the words before you say them

So lie and say you love me
Lie one more time
Stay with me and painfully
Just say we'll be alright
Just lie

You're lookin' out the window
While I long for your attention
Was it ever real to you
Or were you just pretendin'?
Holdin' on to something that's just water in my hands
I asked her why so suddenly
And this is what she told me

It don't feel like dying
When it's happening so slowly
I can see the end before it happens, mm
Oh, I could bare the audiences' laughing

So lie and say you love me
Lie one more time
Stay with me and painfully
Just say we'll be alright
Just lie

Tell me we'll go on and on and on forever
Holding on to something better
On and on and on forever
Holding on to something, oh

Stay with me and painfully
Just say we'll be alright
Just lie

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LET THE GRASS GROW

I wait for the morning tide
The ocean's to rise
But I lay here broken too heavy to float
I'm an emotionless wreck

So I tell myself this lie
I'm not scared to die
And make molehills of mountains
There's gold in this ground
But I ain't found it yet

So I leave before you go
'Cause there's no tears when it's my fault
This self-sabotage
All of our other scars don't compare

Take the river to the sea
Drown myself so I don't sink
Find my peace there underneath the hurricane

Break a promise so I can leave
Burn a forest so I can sleep
Lay my headstone
Let the grass grow over me

There's nothing to fill this void
Stuck turning the soil
So I lay here soaking, there's sand in my bed
What a day to regret

So I leave before you go
'Cause there's no tears when it's my fault
This self-sabotage
All of our other scars don't compare
Oh, oh

Take the river to the sea
Drown myself so I don't sink
Find my peace there underneath the hurricane

Break a promise so I can leave
Burn a forest so I can sleep
Lay my headstone
Let the grass grow over me

We didn't make a difference
And we thought we were different
Oh, oh, oh

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YOU AGAINST YOURSELF

I know you feel it but you always rather bottle it up
I'm rooting for you but you're not even trying
I want to help you but it's hard to get through all of your walls
I hope you know that I'm rooting for ya

You made all this conflict
Brought it upon yourself
Is this what you wanted?
I can't even tell

Stuck in the thick of it (ooh, ooh)
God aren't you sick of it by now not just a little bit? (Ooh, ooh)
It's always you against your-
Selfish ways are suffocating
I can't save you now
Oh, why's it always you against yourself?

You're on the other side of everything that anyone says
So defensive and it's you that it's hurting
I wanna help you but I can't so I'm walking away
I'm rooting for ya, still rooting for ya

Wish I could be honest
Wish you'd understand
We don't talk very often
You're lost in your head

Stuck in the thick of it (ooh, ooh)
God aren't you sick of it by now not just a little bit? (Ooh, ooh)
It's always you against your-
Selfish ways are suffocating
I can't save you now
Oh, why's it always you against yourself?

You're going out almost every night
And you wonder why you feel f*cked up
Say you wanna try to live a better life
Until you realize nothing's enough
But you're going out almost every night
And you wonder why you feel f*cked up
Say you wanna try to live a better life
Until you realize nothing's enough

Stuck in the thick of it (ooh, ooh)
God aren't you sick of it by now not just a little bit? (Ooh, ooh)
It's always you against your-
Selfish ways are suffocating
I can't save you now
Oh, why's it always you against yourself?

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SOMEONE ELSE'S PROBLEM

It's scary letting go
I know, I know, I know, I know
It's hard to be alone
But I know I'll find a way to cope

Yeah, I thought I'd be upset
I thought I'd have regrets
Without you in my head

Oh
Every day's gettin' better
Now the rain finally let up
Nobody to stress me out
You're someone else's problem now
Really dodged me a bullet
And I can sleep easy knowing
Knowing that you're not around
You're someone else's problem now
Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh
You're someone else's problem now

Nothing's getting overblown
No one's jealous, no one's crying driving home
Yeah, oh, I won't miss the way you lied
And the games you played to get a rise
Oh, no

I used to be obsessed
Now I couldn't care less
Ever since you left

Oh
Every day's gettin' better
Now the rain finally let up
Nobody to stress me out
You're someone else's problem now
Really dodged me a bullet
And I can sleep easy knowing
Knowing that you're not around
You're someone else's problem now
Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh
You're someone else's problem now
Oh, oh
You're someone else's problem

And whoever you find next
Oh, I wish, I wish them all the best

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WISH I HAD YOU

I belong to the way you see the world
Got attached to the way you saw me
Had our future aligned just like dominoes
Too much space in between

Close my eyes, but what's the use?
'Cause my mind still dreams of you
All alone inside this room
Where you told me
Maybe we should stop tryna save this

So I'll try and do it on my own
But only 'cause I have to
Oh, I'll lie and say I'm having fun
When the opposite is true
All the words that I said
Couldn't stop you from leaving
What's left to lose?
I'll try and do it on my own
But, God, I wish I had you

I remember you asked if we'd still be friends
What a cruel way to say you're happy
Guess you moved on before you were really gone
Lying right beside me
Just tell me was your heart ever breaking?

So I'll try and do it on my own
But only 'cause I have to
Oh, I'll lie and say I'm having fun
When the opposite is true
All the words that I said
Couldn't stop you from leaving
What's left to lose?
I'll try and do it on my own
But God I wish I had you

Close my eyes, but what's the use? (Oh-ooh)
'Cause my mind still dreams of you
Yeah, I'll try do it on my own
But, God, I wish I had you

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IF AND/OR WHEN

I could imagine you breaking my heart
Those things can happen
Whenever you hold on too hard
I'm not a pessimist, I'm just a mess in the dark, ooh
Tend to get anxious when something begins
'Cause I know the chances of staying together are slim
The odds are against us, but I'll make the best of whatever this is

Oh, ooh
Tired of writing in pencil, I'm inkin' you in
Oh, ooh
Living like I'm not afraid of the end
Afraid of the end
Afraid of the end
If, and, or when
Can we just pretend we're not afraid of the end?

What if you met someone else at your work?
Someone more stable and better at putting you first
You could lose patience while I'm on the other side of the earth

Oh, ooh
I'm tired of writing in pencil I'm inkin' you in
Oh, ooh
Living like I'm not afraid of end
Afraid of the end
Afraid of the end
If, and, or when
Can we just pretend we're not afraid of the end?

Oh, ooh
Oh, ooh
If, and, or when
Can we just pretend we're not afraid of the end?

I could imagine you breaking my heart
I could imagine you breaking my heart
It might not happen, but there's still a chance
I can imagine
I can imagine

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MUST BE NICE

Wondering where you've been
Oh my god, I'm thinking of you again
Oh my god, I'm thinking of you again

I heard it from, from your friend
They told me you were happy with him
They told me you were happy

Well tell me how the hell are you alright
It's not alright
You make it look so easy
Tell me what it's like
To sleep well every night
Not fake it when you smile
To move on with your life
F*ck, it must be nice

Oh, oh, I'm so glad for you
If only I was happy too
If only I was happy
Oh, oh-ohh

Well tell me how the hell are you alright
It's not alright
You make it look so easy
Tell me what it's like
To sleep well every night
Not fake it when you smile
To move on with your life
F*ck, it must be nice

While I'm barely holding on
Oh, I'm barely holding on
While I'm barely holding on

So tell me what it's like
Oh, tell me what it's like
To move on with your life
F*ck, it must be nice

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END SCENE

Looking through the glass
We got here so fast
No use tryna do it over
We ain't getting older
We lost all control
Wish I had've known
That the road would hit the sunset
Are we having fun yet?

Oh, I still remember
Who we were, who we were
There's blood on your sweater I can't get off
But it reminds me of the first time

When did we stop giving a- about losing our minds?
Our minds
Remember I jumped out of the car to prove I was alive
And it reminds me of the first time

(Ooh)
(Ooh)

Buildings falling down
Always thought we'd drown
Either way we're going under
Still going under
Loved you 'til the end
We can still pretend everything is gonna be fine

How close can we get to closure?
Who knows
Oh, I'm on the edge looking over
And it reminds me of the first time

When did we stop giving a- about losing our minds?
Our minds
Remember I jumped out of the car to prove I was alive
And it reminds me of the first time (first time, baby)

(Ooh)
(Ooh)
(Ooh)
(Ooh)

Watching it all fall apart
We've been falling from the start (from the start, no)
Watching it all fall apart
We've been falling from the start
Watching it all fall apart
We've been falling from the start
Watching it all fall apart
We've been falling from the start