RapidFire - Internally Dead Lyrics

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I been so patient chasing my dream to ever to get complacent
Stuck in a game full of snakes but they're familiar faces I trust no one but myself
And most days I don't trust what I'm capable of due to the state of my mental health
But understand without this now there ain't much left
So the hunger you see is based on the fact that I crave success
Meanwhile tryna cleanse my brain from stress I'm a blatant mess
Feeling this pain & regret & anger exude from each and every single taken breath
Now I wish I could erase my flesh & start over I can't cope with the pain
You see I need to relax & the weed helps man so I started smoking again
I try to escape but it seems the demons have got a f*cking hold on my brain
Now I'm hoping for change before I let go & let vultures indulge in my broken remains
You don't know what it's like to be me you don't know bout the thoughts in my head that drive a man crazy
I try to find worth but ain't much to live for lately
Who'd have thought that I'd grow to be this anti social mess that you know as me
I'm trying to make things right but get no relief pray for change & I hope for peace

I've been trapped inside of my mind
This prison that I'm living in is beating me to death
Yet every day I scratch and I claw just tryna' climb
Drowning in this pool full of emptiness and regret
I've been trapped inside of my head
The voices take control driving me to suicide
Maybe I'll feel relief when I've taken my final breath
Because I can't comprehend how I'm dead inside but still alive

Darkness... Surrounded by this every time that I wake
I just hope I can right my mistakes by the time that I die & I'm lying in my grave
Many scenarios that come alive in my brain won't allow to me smile for a day
Yeah I know that I'm blessed right now still I must keep an eye for the snakes
Because they all wanna see me fail
And my mind's so obliged to cooperate
Part of me wants to succeed but truthfully I don't know which side that I'm gonna face
Every day is a battle and I know I'm at war with myself
So I guess that I'm stuck with these lost thoughts until the day they escort me to hell

I've been trapped inside of my mind
This prison that I'm living in is beating me to death
Yet every day I scratch and I claw just tryna' climb
Drowning in this pool full of emptiness and regret
I've been trapped inside of my head
The voices take control driving me to suicide
Maybe I'll feel relief when I've taken my final breath
Because I can't comprehend how I'm dead inside but still alive