Raploid - Confidence Lyrics

I'm a f*cking joke a f*cking piece of shit
And I want to kill myself sometimes like dammit I admit
But I'm not going to finnish myself of I'm just going to make myself cry
Punch myself in the face agian for thinking that I should die
Don't stop me here I need to be punnished for my selishness
Until I look at the mirror look at all my bruises I'm ridiculous
I want to kill myself so bad like I have said that shit before
But I'm not going to do that couse I couldnt hurt my friends more
So instead I hurt myself and act like I'm okay at school
Walk around in expensive clothes so the others think that I'm cool
But that does't work out well or maybe I just can't feel it
Maybe I look to tired I can feel that but I will not sit
I must stand up for the microphone then I'm gonna shout
Try to make it with my songs to make my parents proud
I don't know how but I have to become famous like an icon
To make everyone proud and I hope this gets that shit done
Until that I deserve all the pain it's just physical abuse
I can get pain killers that's the only thing that I could use
People told me not to sing or rap about this stuff
But I can take the hatred I can't cooperate with love
Yeah I tried that feeling before but love is just a dissapointment
Or maybe it's just me there ain't no love that i can send
I hate when people ignore me but I ignore them too I'm a hypocrite
Shouldn't blame everything on myself but I deserve it
I sound like another rapper so they call me copycat
But he was an icon to me so I rather enjoy hearing stuff like that
It seems that thats the only thing I enjoy nowadays
It shurely is better then the mirror in the bathroom I have to face
I might change my style agian somewhere in the future doe
When I have my mind straigt or change my mood I don't know
When I am happy agian or really having fun
Or my sadness change to anger and want to fire out my gun
I'm going to make it happen
Just have some confidence
I controle my breath
Now have some confidence
I can concentrate
Now have some confidence
I can't control myself
It's time for confidence