Suffering Video (MV)

I wanna put myself in a different lonely place
Cause I know that I'm just a waste of space
And I'm in my room crying and wasting most of my days
I know I'm loved but I feel like a f*cking disgrace
I wanna run away but have nowhere to flee
Nowhere to escape no, maybe death sets me free?
Well I don't want people to worry 'bout me
That's why I fake my smile so my friends wouldn't see
And nobody else is gonna witness me cry
Because then I'm afraid that I must explain them why
And then they would know that my smile is just a lie
If I think about that: I wish that I could f*cking die
I make raps, I write about everything I wanna say
But nothing can describe me, so I put it all away
In a battle I must fight? I hear that shit every day
I don't wanna fight but people want me to stay
And I'm suffering
Why do I feel so f*cking stressed?
I'm suffering
Why am I feeling so depressed?
I'm suffering
I just want some f*cking rest
I'm suffering
Suicide might be for the best
I'm suffering
Why do I feel so f*cking stressed?
I'm suffering
Why am I feeling so depressed?
I'm suffering
I just want some f*cking rest
I'm suffering
Suicide might be for the
No, you did it to yourself every time you cried
And think your solution is f*cking suicide?
Not for you no, but for us it might
Go ahead jump emo. You wanted to see the light right?
You know what I'll do it just one more step
My final words used to make this f*cking rap
Then I'll finally sleep, yeah, one last nap
A few seconds free falling then I'm done with the crap
Don't misunderstand me it's not fair I admit
I must enjoy life but I'm not into that shit
They were looking for a hobby for me that would fit
That's how I became good with the rhyme and the word spit
Might be the fastest rapper in Holland, no bluff
But no matter how fast I rhyme it's never enough
About depression, aggression and other stuff
Though I never seem to satisfy that makes it so rough
And I'm suffering
Why do I feel so f*cking stressed?
I'm suffering
Why am I feeling so depressed?
I'm suffering
I just want some f*cking rest
I'm suffering
Suicide might be for the best
I'm suffering
Why do I feel so f*cking stressed?
I'm suffering
Why am I feeling so depressed?
I'm suffering
I just want some f*cking rest
I'm suffering
Suicide might be for the best
The hurting never stops I always feel the pain
Feel every insult getting sucked into my brain
I feel like a mistake and that shit makes me insane
I think about it. what? Should I throw myself for a train?
I do nothing exhausting, yet I feel so tired
Never got the fame that I always desired
And if you want to become famous then don't get inspired
Because there is more luck than skill required
And being like me is like being a waste
All the shit I wrote is on emotions based
And if you write like that you will get debased
Cause most of the effort will simply get erased
So what ever the effort is: It ain't worth it at all
Did everything I could to achieve my final goal
The outcome of this song is beyond my control
But everything I wrote came straight from my soul
And I'm done