Raven - GROWING PAINS Lyrics

Raven
Sunglasses hide the dialated pupils and the bloodshot
Lost my mind to make it to the money, that's a dumb knot
I hide it but these days, only thing I can feel is pain
I could take it all away in a second with just a gunshot
I been thinkin' 'bout the trust I said was sacred
And I been thinkin' 'bout how I left you negated
And I try to hide it but everybody close knows I'm achin'
Think this was the one time that I felt awakened from betrayal
Why'd I do it? I don't know, let me think for a second
Maybe before you could hurt me first, I had to wreck it
'Cause I'm sick of bein' victimized and taken for granted then left
But I don't know foreal, just takin' a guess
That cocaine, tequila and propane take the stress away
That's temporary, though
You did the same in a better way
I'm down every time I think about you, how can I elevate?
I'm down for whatever now
You the one that had me kept away from my old ways
I ain't feel controlled, bae
I felt uncontrolled and unparoled and that shit hold weight
No brakes, no chains
Eightball, sniff the whole thing
I don't think this what they meant when they talked about growin' pains
Doin' this without you is a cold game, ain't no love in it
Empty inside, it ain't nothin' but some drugs in it
Inside my mind, ain't holdin' nothin' but a grudge in it
Against my mothaf*ckin' self
Damn