Raw Honey - suffocation Lyrics

I knew that suffocation strangled
But I tried to breath with you attached
To these shackles wrapped around my ankles
When I put the padlock through the latch
I'm not sure if conflict is this common
But you say there's lots that I don't know
And after all, it's exciting
Ironically inviting
This cycle I can't seem to outgrow

I just wanna be noticed when you
Look the other way after all the hell you put me through

I can't let go of it
Shutting off, always unpunished
I know I should be above this
But there's just something I love in
The way you pull me back into you
When I've already panicked
Thinking you're gone now forever
Why can I not understand?

I've made astounding observations
About the complicated life you love to lead
When you're anticipating disrespect
Foreseeing some sort of neglect
It ends up all projected onto me
That little callous on your thumb's telling me that
Taking the edge off really isn't so bad
Your invectives are so inventive
And my f*cked up perspective
Just keeps me falling for you
Ain't that sad?

I can't let go of it
Shutting off, always unpunished
I know I should be above this
But there's just something I love in
The way you pull me back into you
When I've already panicked
Thinking you're gone now forever
Why can I not understand?

I'm finding solace in the way you
Know how to clear all the debris
Kiss me softly, whisper gentle
The whimpers when you tremble
All help me to forget you're using me

I can't let go of it
Shutting off, always unpunished
I know I should be above this
There's just something I love in
The way you pull me back into you
When I've already panicked
Thinking you're gone now forever
Why can I not understand?
I just wanna be noticed when you
Look the other way after all the hell you put me through
I'm f*cking up my body staying numb when I'm bored
I swore to God that I would save you
I can't take anymore