the way you want your house Video (MV)

I hit the floor after you closed the door the fifteenth time today
But I want more, and I've been sore from never feeling anything
I should care less when all you're thinking about
Is how to undress with strangers, I'm starting to doubt
Cause if you cared, then you would share a little more about
The way you wanna disappear, the way you want your house
I'm seeking clarity from somebody who doesn't see a future
I miss who you were
But I'll still answer the phone sometimes
I'm happy to note
That you'll stay awake if you have time
You're kinda my home
How come we'll just leave each other broken if we get too close?
I don't wanna know how you're okay without me
Just don't let me go
Guess I forgot about the way it's better when you're never there
I'm never thinking 'bout the way I want my kids to have your hair
I'm such a mess watching you drinking about
Every mistake unaddressed, the circles we run around
I'm chasing after never ending plans that I keep changing
Cause you don't commit to anyone or any expectation
You're kinda scaring me the way you run away to someone newer
I miss who you were
But I'll still answer the phone sometimes
I'm happy to note
That you'll stay awake if you have time
You're kinda my home
How come we'll just leave each other broken if we get too close?
I don't wanna know how you're okay without me
Just don't let me go
Well f*ck the way you made me halt
I dedicated you my future
You'll never be the person I want
At least I know that you knew her
But I'll still answer the phone sometimes
I'm happy to note
That you'll stay awake if you have time
You're kinda my home
How come we'll just leave each other broken if we get too close?
I don't wanna know how you're okay without me
Just don't let me go