Refuge from a Dismembered Heart Video (MV)

Remember we was in our honey moon phase
Now we barely even have any discussion bout what we do in a day
And it gets to me, Yeah it sticks to me, My soliloquy's
Shattered as an ornament's suicide off of a Christmas Tree
Smile glistening, Was thinkin that you're the sun
That was day 1, Time became a notion, Now I fear that you're done
Load up the gun, Take a second to think
Realize, My life without you ain't the peak
Turn that around, Do you share the same feelings as me
Or is it unrequited as the secret love of a geek
I wasn't finished when I told you what belies in the deep
You say you love me, But do you love all the demons in me
I can't imagine my reaction if you get up and leave
I can't control none of my reactions with this liquor in me
So when I'm speakin, You just listen, I'm blackin out of my vision
When I return to reality, Hopin that I'm forgiven, I
Was dwellin in the darkest of space
I'm cloaked in madness as a fashion when mentality breaks
Feel my progress doesn't matter if it's killing what we got
How come my liberation doubles as your anguish in these songs
Let me take a second to recuperate
Cause I'm so throwed, It's not another phase
I dunno what to tell her
Clouded by my emotions that got me under the weather

You know I got a lotta shit to say
So let me make it clear as a sunny day
Don't mean to put you up under the flame
But can you blame me if I feel a certain way
Time keeps tickin, And I'm just livin
But somethin's missin, And I can't figure it out
Don't mean to put you up under the flame
But can you blame me if I feel a certain way

My prerogative deep inside I'm perusin
If I'm prone to my seclusion it's cause I'm used to reclusion
Gotta say it now, These accusations are out of bounds
Can't take it, All these cases I'm ingesting now
Back at it, I'm drunken until I'm yackin
Feelings become combative, The furthest thing of an additive
Imagine if, Images seen ain't of a ma-gi-cian
Then I would never have to retain what's in our narrative
These shadows encompass me like a symbiote
Cerebral- clerical- errors- repaired- in a miracle
Insecurities, I employ as mental security
Just a muse to me, Crescendo becomes the eulogy
Huh, I never thought I'd be the darkest cause
To watch it all start to crumble coming off the pause
My final fantasies are torn a part
Or am I just a refugee of a dismembered heart

When it all falls down
These are all my remedies and amenities
You are both my curse and my divinity
I love you girl

You know I got a lotta shit to say shit to say
So let me make it clear as a sunny day Yeah
Don't mean to put you up under the flame Well alright
But can you blame me if I feel a certain way IF I FEEL A CERTAIN WAY
Time keeps tickin, And I'm just livin
But somethin's missin, And I can't figure it out
Don't mean to put you up under the flame
But can you blame me if I feel a certain way

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