Reid - violent! Lyrics

I don't want you to feel sorry
No its not your fault, know you're worried
Think about whats going on w me ur hurting
I can't lie, struggling for a purpose
I dont wanna die but idk if its all worth it
I really hate it how i gotta go thru all this pain just to feel myself
I'm really anxious now don't wanna mess things up but its hard when im not doing well
Yeah i gotta find the problem
Psilocybin messing with my head now i rly feel like dying
Looking for the love, yeah its in the silver lining
Took to many drugs now its messing w my timing
Got me feeling f*cked up, acting like im fine
And listening to my thoughts
Then i hear the sirens
Every time i mess up i can hear the silence
It's violent
Yeah its hard not to wait up
But im better on my own need a change up
From you
I need to save us
From falling further apart
Cuz i'm contagious
Gotta say i really miss ur absence
God i miss the days when i aint worry bout shit
I'm okay even though i cant do this
Another cliche just to get me thru this
So far away
You've got me
I wont forget
All the things u said to me
But i don't feel
Well
Yeah i gotta find the problem
Psilocybin messing with my head now i rly feel like dying
Looking for the love, yeah its in the silver lining
Took to many drugs now its messing w my timing
Got me feeling f*cked up, acting like im fine
And listening to my thoughts
Then i hear the sirens
Every time i mess up i can hear the silence
It's violent