Rendered Abstract - Thousand Yard Stare Lyrics

The distance between me and the world
I'm falling from my words
If I were to face the end today
It's what I deserve

All of my depraved actions
All of your painful reactions

I will never know
Don't ever let me go

If I lost it all
What makes you think I care
Searching for hope with this
Thousand yard, this thousand yard stare
If only I could see who I'm supposed to be
If I lost it all
What makes you think I care
Searching for hope with this
Thousand yard stare

I'm sorry for who I am
But this is what I've always been
If there was a change that could be made
I'd still throw it all away

All of my depraved actions
All of your painful reactions

I will never know
Don't ever let me go
I will never know
Don't ever let me know

Reaching deep
It was never enough for me
Fall from grace
Down the spiral

I refuse
I refuse
I refuse to lose it all
What's dead inside I must repair
To never fall astray
I must embrace my own breaking this
Thousand yard, this thousand yard stare
If only I could reach to be the best of me
I refuse to lose it all
I'm breaking this
Thousand yard stare