They say you can feel it still
Awfully real for some thing that's made up
I fell right by your side
While trying to hide the intentions I gave up
Looking at the reflection in the mirror
It's clear it's not the way it was before
Cause I'm standing beside a shell
Of what I once knew
And all that I'd been waiting for
Now when i open my mouth
The hurt that comes out is reflective of my own mind
All the things I left unsaid while waiting around for you to pick a side
You know I got issues
And I know you've got issues too
And they seem to defy all the intentions I heard from you
I can't compensate for the things that I take
But I'll tell you that I'm sorry if it's not too late
Cause I know I miss you after all this time
Do what you want but leave me out of it
I used to hate you when I cried
You never saw the other side of me but now
I'm done with all your f*cking friends
No longer trying to pretend
You used to hate me when I cried
Beat round the bushes
Tryna see em without lookin
Ima shouldering some blame
Until the shoving turn to pushin
I was looking over
I saw atlas grasp the biggest boulder
I wish i could fix her quick
But know that i got i got i got i got
Grievance on my mind
Demons i designed
I could keep my peace of mind
Freakin out on shit that i should leave behind
Rappin' never really felt like wrapping up
I'm keeping time
Seconds pass
Said I'm fine
Wonder why i even lie
Wonder why i even tried
Salt water lungs from breathing deep in tide
Mouth doth runneth over
From the secrets that i keep inside
Deep in lines
Leapin off the board into the deeper side
Bent the board
A smaller splash is adding to a bigger score
I was out here getting bored
Letting go
Shiver from the cold
Didn't notice til i let it snow
Let you know that i was getting reckless with the devils smoke
Catching up with water
And my vegetables
Suss
I used to hate you when I cried
You never saw the other side of me but now
I'm done with all your f*cking friends
No longer trying to pretend
You used to hate me when I cried
It seems now I have forgotten the way
You made me feel
I tried but I can't figure out what to say
None of this feels real
I know you don't understand that I don't wanna be friends
No longer tryna pretend
I must have dried out my eyes
From all the tears that I've cried
No longer saying goodbye now
Cause I know I
I used to hate you when I cried
You never saw the other side of me but now
I'm done with all your f*cking friends
No longer trying to pretend
You used to hate me when I cried