What gets me down is not the feeling that I have but the feeling Ill get
It keeps me up at night it makes me feel sick
The present is all I have and its all that I have left
I f*cked my life up that much I will confess
If it doesn't get better now I doubt it ever will
I'm full speed ahead now but it's all downhill
Have no reason to live but lack the will to die
It's a flip of the coin a roll of the dice
Maybe one day ill feel good enough to go outside
Don't worry about the days to come but remember where I came from
The only thing keeping me going is the hope that this feeling won't last
But its so hard when everyday feels overcast
I'm so f*cking sorry but this is where I have to go
At least I can stop this bitching and moan
So that's my story it's a feeling that I hate but have to deal with
Ill keep on fighting again and again and again and again
But if I drop I beg of you please don't help me up
I'll just admit that i'm a f*ck up